I remember them days
Of feeling like my mind is so twisted
Of taking these drugs & being so distant
& ever since my grandfather died
My whole life done shifted
& now i’m reminiscing about the beginning’s
(Yeah-yeah)
You rap it cause you want it
I’m rapping cause i need it
This music shit to me is therapy
It’s like a treatment
I swear on everything you’ll look at me different
Just if only you knew how i was treated
(Yeah yeah yeah)
We follow the innovators & not the imitators
Yeah you been a traitor
But you don’t know shit about that
Garbage polling up so much sooner or later
You gotta throw it out in the sintegrator
(Yeah yeah yeah)
Man i’m really scared
It’s so crazy how life still goes on without you here
& all the people you loved eventually disappears
So over the years from all of my emotions
Physically i’m not really here
Nipsey was the blueprint & he layed it out
I wonder if i speak the truth
Are they gone take me out
Last time i was comfortable
I almost didn’t make it out
A torn achilles like kobe i had to play it out
When i was 4, 5 and 6
Niggas was rolling them dice
& selling they souls not knowing
It was bought with a price
If you ahead on that score card
Don’t get caught by the right
I just wanna come home
& tell my pops goodnight
Lost the people i love
God i think i get the message
Mistakes are never forgiven
If you ain’t learn your lessons
But i overcame it & now everything is a blessing
Hold on, wait
I wanna make a confession
Why do we gotta die just to see heaven?
Is it because it’s the higher essence
Well
This is what i go through thinking through my deep depressions
Depression
(Yeah)
If the sky is the limit then let us fly
Like how the police gone’ gun us down in the street
& just let us die
You got read bedtime stories
My mom used to sang me lullabies
That’s word to shakur
I don’t wanna see my momma cry
In the hood you gotta improvise
Angels in the snow but to me
There we’re only butterflies
If it’s highlighted you gotta make it home
Before the lights come on
Cause you the underline
It’s not about what you say
It’s what you gotta say
You handed out the cards you dealt
So now you gotta play
If you bite the hand that feeds you
It’s like thanksgiving & you without a plate
(Haha) (Yeah-yeah)
These days it’s not what you are
It’s what you might be
Aww sugar honey ice tea
Low-key i’m feeling high key
I gotta new york state of mind
Yeah i’m something like spike lee
Aight B
Lost the people i love
God i think i get the message
Mistakes are never forgiven
If you ain’t learn your lessons
But i overcame it & now everything is a blessing
Hold on, wait
I wanna make a confession
Why do we gotta die just to see heaven?
Is it because it’s the higher essence
Well
This is what i go through thinking through my deep depressions
Depression
(Yeah)
Thinking through my deep depressions