[Verse 1]

I’ve always been a perfectionist

But I’m feeling that I might change this

Always been lonely but yet who knows

Someone might come for the me I show

And know

Since I express everything, that’s my best image

Show who I truly am, and the pain I’ve been in

Before was saying “I’m fine” to run from trauma

But after this is released, pain I won’t stop ya

Since questioning is sure to show when I show my true self

Been proud of the fact I can get over things without help

It feels nice to be human unlike quote unquote “humans”

I always lived, hoping I’ll get all I want from music

I’m good

My life is how I want to live and no one can stop that

So I’m not asexual, I’m just me and I’m not black

I’m white and I won’t pretend or act cool or hide myself

I’ll just sit down, write truth’s, produce, and then record and tell

And I still somewhat hate myself, but that’s just my mindset

I’ve seen worldly problems and still I don’t really mind it

Since I need to work on myself, but I don’t have to rush

I’ve had fear, it’s still here, but I want change so I push

And hopefully that ending position doesn’t scare me

Since I do feel fear and I’m weak, always. and too caring

About every little thing, and every little person

Though I’ve learned that inside little ones there’s a bigger version

Of themselves they need to uproot, I think I may have found it

Ambitions were flying high in the past, now they’re grounded

Like… I had like such motivations and now I just want to survive and live a happy life my way. I don’t care what anyone tells me, I’m doing it how I want to

[Verse 2]

I know this will get no attention and no one will ever listen

But can you please understand what I’m saying, since that’s one big missing

Piece, of ones mind. To never listen and never care about others

And just listen to the stupid, no meaning ass songs about lovers

Sorry I got a lil unwounded there, I have a lot of anger

And I’ve found that frustration holds me back and doesn’t cause change or

Really anything, this is how I’m self sabotaging, I’m well

I’m fine with every reminder of trauma being a living hell

I’m fine with being a perfectionist

Im fine with being a perfectionist, call my mom “ma’am” more than mom

It’s just me, reaching for forgiveness from my actions dropped like a bomb

But I’m fine, rather be overworking than to show little disrespect

Religion isn’t everything that matters, life ain’t god, I don’t need it

Especially when it just brings more pain, from people with their shit minds

And Christians will be like “oh you hate us when we were nice to your kind?”

Yes, of course I hate you, since your views are so, so very blinded

Don’t follow every word willingly, have some independence, finding

People that hate and see me sinful are nowadays so easy to find

Like god why are most Christian’s so blind and so easy to mold or bind

For their lifestyle?

[Chorus]

I’m not fully fine and I’m fine with that

I’m not full of pride, that’s how I should act

See some improvement, thinking that’s a fact

I had some regrets, and I’m fine with that

I’m satisfied now, I’m satisfied now

I’m satisfied now, I’m satisfied

I’ve taken shit and it seems I’ve survived

I’ve bended perspectives, was seen as blind

I’m just token, I’m fine and satisfied

I’m

Alive?