[Intro]
You say you're right by my bedside
(You did good, $lick)
(It's a smash)
Pull me back to life
(L-l-l-lonely boy)
[Verse 1]
Don't know what you heard, but it's probably true
Whole gang got sticks, don't get Bonnie Blue'd
Too high to feel, other than that I'm not in the mood
Don't see me comin' back from this, ooh
Ayy, runnin' out of time, runnin' out of time
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy, runnin' out of time, runnin' out of time
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Yeah, so much on my mind, don't know how they sleep
Paid for all these scars and they weren't cheap
Walkin' past the mirror, fraud what I see
Know it wasn't much, but I gave all of me
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
[Bridge]
Yeah, ain't finna show no fear, my head held high
They don't know deep inside that I'm terrified
Finna pop these pills 'til I'm paralyzed
It's hell to livе a lie
Yeah, I got hella problеms, hella trauma
Yeah, hella doctors, I pay hella dollars
Yeah, no helicopters, but it's hella choppers
Somewhere in the sticks, trippin' like I'm Aaron Rodgers
[Verse 2]
I'm on the phone with my brother binding over trauma
Bunch of issues that we got tyin' back to mama
Can't forgive myself, I did like them and broke a promise
What was done to me, I done to him, I wasn't there
Look at my brother, I see me, and now I'm gettin' scared
My other brother OD'n couldn't even say a prayer
Say I believe in God, but live like He ain't even there
Cut me, I bleed despair
Yeah, fuckin' right, I need every dollar, I done gave them all of me
My wife, my family, 'til I die, won't have no privacy
Look, Dad, I did it—turned your name into a dynasty
Only cost me everything I had inside of me
So much anxiety, I try to suffer quietly
Got pills that quiet me, but fuck up my sobriety
Laugh at the irony, try to see the show, but ain't hire me
Motherfuck a hit song, I'm givin' y'all my diary
[Refrain]
Runnin' outta time, runnin' outta time
Runnin' outta time, runnin' outta time
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
Runnin' outta time, runnin' outta time
Ayy, ayy, ayy, ayy
[Outro]
Yeah, I remember sitting in that adoration temple being like
Asking questions like that, you know?
Am I who I think I am?
What's, what am I here for? What do I have to do?
What do I have to do?
And you kinda gotta take that journey by yourself, you know? You kinda gotta, you gotta go way out there to get your new name and get your heart back, and
I just remember that's how
I, I didn't come into, to Christ, like, with reading the scripture or nothing like that. I came to Christ by myself in this weird adoration temple
Like, I remember I was playing, like, the Toy Story soundtrack, and I'm, like, looking at, looking at
What I know now as the Host, you know?
I'm looking at the Host, and they got Him in this
In this window, and they got it all lit up, and it feels special, and they make it feel special, and it is special, you know? But even if you don't know what's in there, it feels special
And, uh
I just remember, like, playing the Toy Story soundtrack
You know, "You got a friend in me," and I just remember giggling like I was there with somebody
I don't even think I fully had faith yet, but I, it was, like, the beginning of my belief journey
Started thinking something was in there
And I remember feeling, like, way, way the fuck out there or something like what it felt like when I was on that raft with my dad in that chocolatey river, sitting in this adoration temple feeling like there's somebody in here with me, and I'm playing my songs for Him