broken vessels - Intellectual

[Intro]

(You did good, $lick)

(It's a smash)

(lonely boy)

[Verse 1]

Feel like one day I just woke up

Confused, half my life gone

Same ones that's cursing me

Same ones that I'm fighting for

Any time feelings coming up

I tell myself, boy, tighten up

Breaking down, I don't deal with nothing

Cause I can never get high enough

It's a dark cold place when the drugs ain't working

She just wanted me, all she got was Birkens

Rich on paper, inside I'm worthless

Ain't tryna make you nervous, but

[Chorus]

If only you knew, oh

If only you knew, oh, oh

This for every kid who said they wanna die

This for every kid with nowhere left to hide

This for every kid who could never cry

This one for the kids that only know goodbyes

I can't promise you it's gon’ get better

But I can promise it won't last forever

Just hold my hand, we'll let go together

I know a guy with a connect to Heaven

And if I fall, hope I fall forward

I used to call, now the calls forward

Even if I fall, I’ma crawl toward it

If it ends it all, then I am all for it

[Verse 2]

How do you explain pain you can't comprehend?

Oh, who got some oxygen?

Cuz all my friends are dead, yeah, but none of them are buried

And the only man that cared for me in a cemetery

Every time I blink my eyes, it's another February

If love can name a price, I'd pay whatever it tell me

If letting go the price, I don't think I can afford it

If letting go the price, only chance I had was stolen

Days of hunger pains, you can see my ribs poking

Ain't lose all of my faith, yet, can see I'm still hoping

But I can barely breathe, I can barely eat

I been doubling up the dose, I can barely sleep

Body dragging me, even I’d be scared of me

This shit done got too deep, yeah, we past therapy

Times keep getting harder, hoping for tomorrow

The one pill I can't swallow is that I can't help my father

To a fault I’m loyal, hurting in withdrawals

I’m sure they wonder what I think as I'm lighting up the foil, shit