a nightmare worth pursuing

[Intro]

(You did good, $lick)

Oh, woah (It's a smash)

Oh, woah (Sorry, lonely boy)

[Verse 1]

I been goin' through some changes, searchin', lookin' for the truth (Let's go)

Gotta be God workin' through me, I'm doing shit I couldn't do (On God)

Saying shit I couldn't say (On God), money come, give it away

Know we all headed to the grave, I'm just tryna go a different way

Think mama popped one too many, can't understand what she textin' (Ooh)

Break my heart when I read the comments, some fans thinking I left them

But they don't know, even as I glow, I'm still fightin' depression

I was told either grow or die, now tryna live my obsession

Still quеstioning if I do enough

Insecure, can't stand to hеar my own voice unless I tune it up

At this point, it'd be quicker to name who ain't suin' us (Who ain't?)

Their bad days are my bad days, they got the nerve to tell me, "Boy, loosen up" (Shut the fuck up)

Fuck (Shut up), every song made out of self doubt (Self doubt)

More confused that I'm on the stage, people listen like I got it figured out (Let's go)

Feelin' homeless with the biggest house (Let's go)

Spit the pain poets written 'bout (Let's go)

Getting money that I dreamt about (Let's go)

Love come with interest, they just lenders now (Let's go)

Damn, advice coming from my father in law

Tellin' me to put my armor on

The evil comin' the more you talk 'bout God

Damn, Lord, I'm prayin' that you give me strength

I'm not worthy to come through the gates

Take for granted every breath I take

[Bridge]

Uh-huh, Lord, I pray you give me peace of mind, huh (Lord, I pray)

But right now, I'm on demon time, huh (Right now, I'm on demon time)

Uh-huh, Lord, I pray you give me peace of mind, huh (Lord, I pray)

But right now, I'm on demon time, huh

[Verse 2]

Choppa on me, yeah, yeah, yeah

Bodies droppin', yeah, yeah, yeah

Mamas sobbin', yeah, yeah, yeah, uh, uh-huh

Baller blocking, yeah, yeah, yeah

Schemin', plottin', yeah, yeah, yeah

Time to lock in, yeah, yeah, yeah

Lonely boy, I'm goin' Steve Jones (Steve Jones)

Lonely boy, blacked out all chrome (All chrome)

Lonely boy like my friends gone (Turn me up)

Fuck a bitch, hoes get friend zoned (Yeah)

Hearse boy, getting my dead on (Brrt)

'Bout time I get right, I'm dead wrong (Yeah)

Loose screws no gettin' my head on, yeah, yeah (What?)

Popped a Perc', I thought it was an Advil (Turn me up)

AK rippin' shit up like a tantrum

Undisputed, Usyk Alexander, huh, ayy

Pop out just to let 'em take a gander (Ah)

Young cracker, brothers call me phantom (Ha)

Unc' ballin' like I'm Adam Sandler (Yeah, sheesh)

Bought a Lamb' to let my brother flaunt it

Pupils pinned, my body screamin' haunted

Turn the fuck up when I get exhausted, huh, uh-huh (Turn me up, turn me up)

They couldn't afford what the fuck it cost me (Ha)

Family cryin' 'cause they know they lost me

Pieces of me die with every coffin (Woah)

So fuck it, everybody 'bout to get hit

Fuck it, everybody die, die, die (Die, die, die)

Going out like Cooper, I'm goin' interstellar

We past getting high, high, high (High, high, high)

Runaway boy, bye, bye, bye (Bye, bye)

Another day more lie, lie, lies (Lie, lie)

Motherfuck these demons, I'm stickin' my tongue out like ah, ah, ah, ah, ah

[Bridge]

All I have is nightmares, nightmares, nightmares

[Verse 3]

Body feeling fucked up, bitch, I might just die

Cross tatted on my face, devil still up in my eyes

Broke out the asylum, poppin' pills until I'm unalived

Baby cut the fuckin' lights off, don't want you to see me cry

Don't want you to view me different, demons tryna break my spirit

All them voices, you don't hear it? I can't let 'em know I fear it

I can't let 'em know I'm scared, I can't show 'em that I care

Product of that trauma when you grow up with nobody there

Think I'm losin' it, think I'm losin' it

Pickin' up my cross like how the fuck was Jesus movin' this?

Think I'm losin' it, think I'm losin' it

If I don't pop these pills my brain won't stop until I'm shootin' it

[Outro]

You know, I remember digging like a hole in my backyard

I was gonna go to China, you know? I was gonna run away to China

Just diggin' this hole, I think I gave up like eight feet down

Put some cardboard on top, it made a cool fort, but, uh

You know, I remember like gettin' my first Huffy bike

I had this neon green Huffy bike

And I remember, like, being like maybe 11 and

Maybe even younger than that, just taking off

You know just, just, just taking off and

There used to be this laundromat down the street, it was far, and I used to just take off, I remember being like 10, 11 and

Being on my bike, I felt like I could go anywhere, you know

Didn't matter what was going on, I could just fuckin' take off

And then, uh, I remember climbing rooftops and, like jumping on other peoples roofs and stuff like that, you know?