I Still Breathe - Intellectual

[Verse 1: Rustage]

Yeah, never thought I'd be free to think

Say it wasn't a lot, but you can make a noose from a piece of string

Pouring out like a shot, not a punching bag, when you need to drink

I've been waving the white flag, mixing red 'til I'm bleeding pink

Say I'm wrong, so I blame myself

Promised Heaven, but you made it Hell

Honestly, it wasn't hate I felt

Just dreaded moments I'm afraid to tell

Losing sleep, and it drains my health

Using words to create my cell

Feeling weak by the chains you held

So I never lived 'til I said farewell

All the names that you call me

Fear is something you taught me

See the tears of people you love

That disappear when they turn towards me

Saved the page, but changing the story

Stayed the same, but bathed in the glory

I've been choking out on my short leash

Step on broken shards 'til the floor bleeds

[Pre-Chorus: Kahze]

In the corners of my mind

I can feel my fear arise

People say I'm still alive

Despite anxiety

Suffocating me

And I'll feel that pain again

So long as I still breathe

[Chorus: Kahze]

When you're at this crowing awkward point

Saying you're not good enough

And your end is breaking all you've sought

Or you've just gotta keep on

Running, running, I haven't given up

I ain't giving up to feel this way

Of running, of running, I gotta kill these thoughts

And I won't stop until the end

[Verse 2: Rustage]

I was apologetic when I needed sorrys

Never listening to the flee and worry

Some mistakes I ain't keen to copy

Felt the weight of my secrets on me

Glassed-eyed, all they see are proxies

Heart died, and the beat is choppy

Start trying to keep breathing properly

Buried deep in a sea of concrete

Bit too late

Tanning knees like spinning plates

When he sleep in a pit of snakes

Temp his teeth and trigger pains

Bit on trade when no give and take

Rip my cord, and I drift away

Never meant to capitulate

I just feared you with a different face

Ay, you turn this love into a battleground

Filling up the glass and you ignore the way your anger sounds

Never brave enough to stand my ground

Sick of all the hurting, I refuse to let you drag me down