[Verse 1]

Dear Mom, have I told you that I love you but I hate you?

That I'm forever affected feeling wasteful?

That I'm afraid of demons that chase you?

'Cause you gave me up, for what? Some guy to keep you graceful?

How would you feel if you felt money just replaced you?

But when that money gone that I'd need you to feel stable?

Thought I understood 'til I looked real close

Now I avoid you 'cause that's how I cope

Medications they put me on n' called me crazy

Behavior schools where everybody'd hate me

Would you'vе let that orphanage take mе?

If dad's dying wish didn't get Aunt Susie to come save me?

I always felt like sh-, could never understand it

Twenty-two for I knew that it came through your damage

Things that shouldn't hurt much brought more pain

'Cause that's the way your actions wired my brain

[Interlude: Mom]

"It was a bad decision but I didn't know any better

I thought I was doing better for you

And I created a lot of damage."

[Verse 2]

And I want to make a song just to clear it all up

'Cause this stuff we never discussed, dis-cushioned

Or touched n' I think that you think that we're cool

But when I text "Love you, too" it's 'cause I don't wanna be rude

Can you imagine how that feels to be your child?

To see a text that supposed to make me smile?

Instead remind me inside why I feel so empty

And why I always feel like the world's so against me

I know I love you, I just hate that I love you

But that love doesn't mean that I trust you

You used to try to give me money when I'm broke

Did I ever accept that shit?! No!

I don't wanna accept money and let you feel better

Like a few bucks is enough to measure

The pain that I go through!

So you can numb your pain, but only offered the money to help you

Forget that, man, I'd had rather stay broke

Pull the pin n' wait for the grenade smoke

I'm still the same screwed up kid with lame jokes

Who loved my music in my lil' rain coat

While you took another track just to gain hope

Dropped me off to gain steam then your train broke

So, I hate it when your name's spoke

'Cause you're the reason why my brain's soaked

In trust issues with women

And girls can't trust me 'cause I can't put trust in'm

Worst part is that I gett'm, I just can't keep'm

So, happiness for me can never sink in

Here's what I'm thinkin'

[Outro: Mom & Rob Level]

"I guess I always looked for forgiveness from you."

"And I wonder if I ever would've given it to you

If I never found... success

Or the ability to use my story to help other people."

"I don't know, I think if it was done to me

I probably would've never talked to my mother again."