Roots - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

No, I don't need no sympathy

But if I had excuses, I'd tell you reasons why I am different

So used to bein' on the down, to go up is so hard to me

I'm breaking free

For the first time in college from seventeen-year-old pains finally

Best believe, I'm more stupid than anything

I've never been handed a responsibility

So I never learnt to solve a problem by myself

I gotta wait for an order first to do something else

The last time I made a decision on my own, I got bashеd

Funny how I'm a debater 'cause I havе no common sense if it's right or wrong to do

I just follow all the rules

Even if I know, I'll accept it when things don't go as it should be

You know what hurts more than havin' no choices?

That's when you got 'em but you have no control over it

I'll let it flow and...

Wish I could take you back in time, behind these eyes

See the roots of my traits inside to understand me

Life and its events have led me to who I am now (who I am now)

But still, I'm tryin' to embrace imperfections to be better now (be better now)

Been raised by six different figures

Some contradict to each other

I had to change my personality to avoid squabbles

But havin' many parents do have consequences that affect your childhood

I was in senior high school when Papa took me out to a café 'cause I never hung out like others

Never experienced what boys commonly got

Never unscrewed and broke some toys, my wit is numb

Kids at 16 drive cars, whereas joyfully, I ride a bike for the first time

I don't understand concepts of basic logic

And that's why it ain't surprising when they call me wishy washy, immature, selfish and childish

I been told to man up, but I ain't man enough to face it

Tryin' to pick my own cards, but I keep gettin' criticized

It's why the best way to handle it is being quiet

But I'm proud of me somehow for tryin' to make it

Wish I could take you back in time, behind these eyes

See the roots of my traits inside to understand me

Life and its events have led me to who I am now (who I am now)

But still, I'm tryin' to embrace imperfections to be better now (be better now)

I often lose my focus

Maybe 'cause I'm purposeless

I don't know what's in my head

All I want's a breath of fresh air