[Intro]
You know, I don't like talking about the past
'Cause mine is a nightmare
But it's time to let the skeleton out the closet
Never seen him much, never wanted to
But from the stories I heard..
[Verse 1]
How bad I crave to be my Dad
'Cause outrageously, like a power outage
He left for the dark side as the Darth Vader without a lightsaber
Right after gettin' his innocent wife pregnant, shouldn't he be my lifesaver?
Imagine the first time you opened up your eyes
The man that made you was out there shakin' up a dice in a can
Four hundred miles away from you who were cryin'
Keep this in mind: two kids in Mom's belly and a daughter, Sir Thomas
Me? It must be his gene how it's hard to count on me
'Cause business wise, he simply sold those Borneo woods half the freakin' price
Just to get the money and rush to a brothel
And have a threesome with them models
Spend the wherewithals on them bottles
Out of nowhere, he went to an island
Mom, in the meantime, read the Bible while wondering about what her husband did
'Til she found out that her dowry got sold by him
And the doubt now began to pop out when a bunch of debt collectors got in Mom's shop
Hit the desk like...
Shit, I can mention seven deadly sins you carried out, wow
[Chorus]
If an apple doesn't fall far from the tree
A forbidden fruit is all I ever be
'Cause I got a snake's blood in me
But on the other side, I don't wanna be like him
If I lose a bit of sanity
Then don't blame me, it is his fault, not me
If an apple doesn't fall far from the tree
A forbidden fruit is all I ever be
'Cause I got a snake's blood in me
But on the other side, I don't wanna be like him
If I lose a bit of sanity
Then don't blame me, it is his fault, not me
[Verse 2]
You ain't my father, you're the father of my trust issues
Cause of my mother wipin' tears with some dry tissues
I miss you? How could I long for a stranger like him?
You all of a sudden sent me WhatsApp messages
Asking the same question as this: "what grade are you in?"
Guaranteein' to give me some shekels
Bitch, you lied to me
Next months, you contacted me back with a new number
Is it 'cause somebody duns you?
Someday I'll live in luxury, you won't even have an occupation
I recall that robbery you've done in Mama's house
And neglected again your blood relatives
You owe 'em money for none, you borrowed 'em not to feed us
You owe an accountability
It's an irony how your Mom and your other siblings are so kind and humble as opposed to you who's cowardly
It's apparent that I don't wanna be a parent like you who doesn't have a heart
Like sons you cannot tell apart, you'll lose your bill and will to live
Karma is real, I still believe
[Chorus]
If an apple doesn't fall far from the tree
A forbidden fruit is all I ever be
'Cause I got a snake's blood in me
But on the other side, I don't wanna be like him
If I lose a bit of sanity
Then don't blame me, it is his fault, not me
If an apple doesn't fall far from the tree
A forbidden fruit is all I ever be
'Cause I got a snake's blood in me
But on the other side, I don't wanna be like him
If I lose a bit of sanity
Then don't blame me, it is his fault, not me
[Verse 3]
You ain't a Dad to me, you have been dead to me
If I mean so much to you, why am I below your radar screen?
Now I got many achievements, then you go after me
God, I'm sorry for complaining, it wouldn't change a thing
But you don't know how fucking bad I want a complete family
Having a father figure that'll light a fire under me
Usin' you as a damn example of what a real man can be
Not bein' a weak broken-home kid everyone pays no heed to
I once hoped you burn and get rotten
But I've read in Colossians
It says, "Bear with each other
And forgive one another
If any of you has a grievance against someone
Forgive as the Lord forgave you"
So Father, help me, help me
So much hate in my heart, it's achin'
The last time we met, he hugged me and apologized
But it takes time to let bygones be bygones
[Outro]
Billy lives in the land of opportunity
But is Billy really that fortunate?
Because Billy is growing up without a father
It doesn't look good for Billy
The fact is: fathers matter
God and His holy dwelling is a Father of the fatherless
He provides homes for those who were deserted...