[Verse 1]

I ain’t ever use a needle

But I know the right dose

To make my mind doze

From the fact one day I’ll be gone

I’ll be nothing but prerecorded audio

Don’t make this difficult

You and me ain’t kinfolk

It’s becoming clear

When what came out your mouth

I was a clown

For having faith

His text had nothing to do with me

For some reason, you decided to at me

Confronting you

Over the issue

Would’ve made you apologize

You’re not a rude guy

But I feel in the back of your mind

I would seem overly sensitive

We madе jokes that were insеnsitive

My incentive is to

Cleanse myself of all my sins

I committed now from back then

You knew I was wild as a freshman

I disconnected with that comment

And you my friend

I’m not trying to offend

At our age we are young men

But this makes me look at you different

I don’t know if should I feel bitter?

I’m not trying to ruin your Thanksgiving dinner

It hurts you came at me cuz I follow a religion

The fact I was hurt, would you label me a woman?

I kept ducking my emotions

Sorry the path I take

Requires faith

I needed hope

I wanted bad habits out my soul

My worst year, 2019 but you wouldn’t know

To think 2020 followed

2 funerals

My great aunt and grandma gone

I lost so much, gained nothing at all

It felt so wrong

I just wanna what's going on

Will this last long?

[Chorus]

I remember them teasing me

Pain isn’t that hard to see

The halo on me

Is disappearing

As the light gleams

Things are not as they seem

This how it had to be

Since 2003

[Verse 2]

The full moon plays hide and seek in the clouds

I don’t smoke that loud

Then answer me why?

I feel so high off these lows?

It goes to show

I have nothing to do

Running backwards in a loop

I thought changing directions

Was doing something but I wasn’t

Too busy trying to reverse engineer my life

I fear to confirm that

I did my wrongs right

Did it even work?

End it before it gets any worse

Sight fades to black

My vision starts to blur

10 years late to 93

Still tipping

Over the scale

Over the weight

That I might take

I wasn’t involved

But I’m still at fault

I tried to make time

But it’s 7:02

I know you in school

I apologize for the things I did and will put you through

I thought crying would relieve the pain

As the time wastes

I need to relocate

Is this vain

I’m trying to get your attention

But you don’t seem to listen

All the calls I’m missing

I mean who am I kidding?

I know that I did it

Regretting every minute

Stop giving me pity

When will it hit me?

Deep thoughts tell me I’m the evil incarnate

My very existence haunted

The reflection screaming to off it

Let the vultures eat your carcass

Good intention taught us

You might lend your demon flowers

But this is how it has to be

As you let me speak

So I can see the scene

He’s killing himself how do you not see it?

On your hands is the blood he’s bleeding

For my brethren, I will stop breathing

I’m a doubting Tom who’s finna see Jesus

[Chorus]

I remember them teasing me

Pain isn’t that hard to see

The halo on me

Is disappearing

As the light gleams

Things are not as they seem

This how it had to be

Since 2003

[Chorus]

I remember them teasing me

Pain isn’t that hard to see

The halo on me

Is disappearing

As the light gleams

Things are not as they seem

This how it had to be

Since 2003