Hey, the date is September 4th, 2020

I'm in Minturn, Colorado, alone

I'm always alone here

And I'm training to climb Mount Everest for May 2021

And I have a lot of trouble

After our climbs, we'll go out for three days

We'll go out for a week

And it's a very intimate experience climbing a mountain with somebody, sleeping under the stars

Not sexual, just intimate

And when I finish, I come back here to this condo I'm renting

And I'm just alone

And I get fucking depressed every time I come back here

And there's nobody waiting for me to come back

There's no girl

There's no family

There's no dog

This is me

And it feels very dry

I was thinking about my dad right now

I miss him

But why?

I've set my life up to be alone so much

I have that this freedom is maybe too much freedom

And there's no one here but me