Blend - Intellectual

[Pre-Chorus: JoshIGuess]

I try to discover my self love

Really all those times I do not give a fuck

I try to rest my head but it's never enough

I'm up at 4am recording another song

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie

I just wanna know before my health declines

I don't wanna go thru this shit again

And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

And every time I go zzz

Up at least til 3

No it's not that easy

And I remember memories of you just cheating on me

But I just gotta hold myself togеther

I try to discover my self lovе

Really all those times I do not give a fuck

I try to rest my head but it's never enough

I'm up at 4am recording another song

It's never enough

I'll just spend my night feeling down and I'm out of luck

Closer at the wall for an hour shutting off

I'm going mad I just need someone to trust

Laying in my bed disassociate again

Can't stop running back all the little things you said

Can't stop turning down all the chances that I get

I've become a fraction of the person that I was

I try to tell myself I’m over it

But I can’t stop endorphins

Still riding on the hope of it

But I might not get to close to it

And I know you raised the bar but could you lower it?

There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for something more than this

But i wish you’d bring me down

But you got bored of it

I gave you all the time I had but you want more of it

All we do is sit inside

I think there’s more to this

But you’re not supporting it

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie

I just wanna know before my health declines

I don't wanna go thru this shit again

And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend