Contingency Song (Single Version)

I moved a way

And slept with a rotten taste

He lied when he said I was worth it all

I'm afraid I only change myself

Because you're nodding to the original

And if I saw what he sees

No lover of mine cuts deep into a clean face

Now he's just like me

Delusional

I said I'm not in love

Please don't hurt me

Do you feel young again when you're on top of me?

I can't be taken if I give it away

I chop myself up

And shut myself out

Until my body shuts itself down

I pour the boiling water on my hand

I still feel enough to touch myself

And even then, I don't feel like doing it anymore

I shoved enough food in my mouth

And I can mutter out the words, "I don't think I can do it anymore"