I've been digging deep holes in my memory

Dragging bodies through the mud of my history

I buried faith in the ditch where the maggots feed

I tied it's hands when it begged me to set it free

I held you so close that the bones in my hands would break

And I would lay awake and thank you for the way that they ache

When I went digging up holes in my memory

I left a couple empty just for you and me

I think I used to know the difference from between and before

But now I look into the mirror and I don't think that I'm sure

I want a place where we can both die

Cause I've been gambling with two lives

And if the debt I'm owed is taken from me

Then I will take a little piece from every person I leave

While you were changing colors pushing on the walls and the seams

I was asleep and wishing I was anybody but me

I dream in velvet and I'm smothered by the form as it bends

Saturated in my room now I don't have to pretend

I want a place where we can both die

Cause I've been gambling with two lives

And if the debt I'm owed is taken from me

Then I will take a little piece from every person I leave

If I

Set all my doubt aside

Drag it all into

The light

Am I just scared what I'll find?

But I see you

My own shade of the blues

And I'm more scared to lose

What I've found in you

I want a place where we can both die

Cause I've been gambling with two lives