Waste no time, but y’all wasted mine
Every bitch who’s used me get in line
I’m about to kill y’all like I’m killing this beat
Not really but I’ve changed now you see what I mean?
I know it’s wrong but it feels right
I’m becoming a beast of the night
And shut the fuck up there’s no light
And if there was, it wouldn’t be very bright
Y’all bitches did this to me, y’all played me like a movie
Left me in the cold, dark weather, it’s gloomy
I told y’all you would lose me
I’m crazy, I’m loony
I told y’all that I’m doomed
You can’t fucking doom me
These voicеs in my head we have full convеrsation
We talk about how we colder than a basement
Oh you see I’ve changed? What a great observation
But that’s an old story
Let me turn the fucking pages
Some of y’all won’t like this but I don’t give a fuck
Y’all might be concerned that I might light this bitch up
You could be right
You could be wrong
You could not listen to this song
Or you could not give a fuck
And fucking sing along
Bitch I’m in the zone
Better leave me the fuck alone
Don’t play with my dome
While I’m trying to find a home
While I’m trying to find why my life feels like it’s on hold
I just wanna find out why I’m spinning out of control
God this is killing me
This shit’s tearing me apart
Feels like someone’s gone
And tore out my fucking heart
I can’t think
I can’t breathe
I don’t wanna fucking eat
The only thing I wanna do
Is sit in my room and fucking scream
This ain’t anyone’s fault but mine
I just need some alone time
Thoughts are racing going 90
But speed limit’s 25
I worry that y’all won’t like this
While trying to convince myself I don’t care what you think
My trust issues tell me
That when you say you like my shit I can’t believe
Still nobody taking me serious
Hell, why the fuck am I still doing this
Well, music is therapy and it doesn’t
Sit across from me and take notes and shit
You hearing this?
Of course they’re not
They don’t ever fucking listen
They say I’m fire
But I know it’s all fiction
Some of y’all don’t understand
How it feels to have your life in your hands
Then for no reason something changes
And you just snap like a rubber band
Turned into a monster
Just control it for a certain few
Keep the darkness in
And temptation to wanna shoot
The concerning part is
I almost like it
Shit fucking confuses me
I better call up the psychic
She tells me I got no future
And I’ll never find a detour
I’ll never get out of this destruction state
So I just have to find a way to maneuver
Through life like I’m normal
But no way I’m not hopeful
Oh no thanks I’m good
Yeah I already got a journal
I use it to write my thoughts
Like it’s a movie plot
And this depression I got
Yes I know it’s a lot
I know some might worry if they hear this
Some will just not care
The same ones that love me
End up being caught in the crosshairs
We’ve established I’m insane
We fucking know I’m in pain
Everyone’s just fucking kicked me down and laughed in my face
Yeah I’m fucking filled with rage
We almost done with this page
Man y’all can open this again when y’all decide you wanna be fake