I'm in the battlefield, I’m on the front line

But it's my depression I'm battling this time

I thought I defeated him way back when

But soon he popped back up said “Hi” with a grin

I told him to leave that all he does it hurt me

I told him it’s his fault that people just desert me

But he's as stubborn as me, he just doesn't fucking listen

I always feel empty, it feels like there's something missing

I get hungry, but I'm too depressed to eat. I feel like this shit knocks me down, man this shit got me bеat

Depression eats up my еnergy, he's at the table but there ain't a seat

He makes room for himself and he gets ready to feast

Everyday I wake up and wonder why

Depression takes up all my time

He always reminds me that I'm not perfect

He always reminds me that I’m a useless person

It don’t help when I talk bout my future and look ahead

People don't care and just bring up my past instead

I act like it doesn’t matter and that it doesn't faze me

But every person brings up shit from years ago and blames me

People act like they don't go through shit and it's a shame

Because we all have emotions and to pretend you don’t makes you fake

I be staring at my ceiling during the day

And asking how much more of this depression can I take?

I don't know the outcome

But I'm asking “How come?”

How come I have to deal with this?

I know life ain't fair but it shouldn't be like this

Day after day

Suffering from this pain

Wanting it to go away

But I know it's here to stay

God if you're out there

I've run out of ammo

I've grown sick and tired

Of everything around me being a war zone

I can't do this

I can't do this anymore

I'll call up Travis Scott

And see if he has an antidote

I wish I could go back to the past

Change everything, maybe I'd find peace at last

I would go back and make sure we didn't smash

If I did stuff different, maybe I wouldn't be an outcast

God this is tiring

Having to fight so long

And everywhere I go

Feeling like I don't belong

Feeling like I shouldn't be here

Maybe I would've cried less tears

Maybe I wouldn't live in fear

Of this rain that won't ever clear

I have so many questions

Like why the hell does this happen to me?

Why does it seem like all my life

Is me constantly losing?

Happiness shouldn't be this rare

Hey buddy, you got some happiness to share?

I just wanna feel something positive

Hope for a good day, it's always the opposite

And don't say that I'm complaining

It shouldn't be too much to ask

I wanna be happy and not

Feel the darkness from my past

I shouldn't have to fight, especially not again

It turns out I'm behind when I think that I'm ahead

Right now I'm just asking when will the war end

But I know that no one will tell me when