(Verse)

Though I'm independent it depends if its music or social skills

Cause I don't hold a deal

But I can't hold a conversation

Unless if its with someone I know for real

Staying in but I get formal still

Know I need to get control of things

But this really feel like overkill

I don't even get to pull the strings

In my own mind but the whole time

I don't think that anybody's noticing

Funny cause I keep it undercover when I overthink

That's jokes on me like comedy posters

See I'm going off topic so hold my drink

I hide a lot behind all that I want ain't no closin my eyes

It can go in a blink

Life ain't always in sync

Peoplе never really carе to wait

That's ok cause I'm here to stay

Rub it in your face like Cerave

I remember back in 8th grade

Man the concert solo was a scary day

Never really told a soul about the music

But I guess I threw my cares away

Step into the light my hand up to the mic

I bet they ready for a serenade

Dropped a verse on 'em

Watchin changes on the parents face

When its over everybody in the lobby telling me I did a good job

But I still have butterflies up in my stomach I was feelin like a bull frog

After that rush I was hooked on this

I don't plan on getting pushed off it

I won't beat around the bush all day

I'm the one you ain't been put on yet

I would argue that its fair to say

I've been nice for a long time now

If you're tunin in you're very late

Back when I was rocking white and orange Jordans

Lookin like a piece of carrot cake

Better than the shit I wear today

I don't have an ounce of drip to talk about

I can see why it would piss them off

Cause even though they ain't [?]

I'm the one whose cut out of a different cloth

Music better if it is a little long

One size can really fit them all

Who is the artist you're ripping off

What is the feeling you're given off

I tend to pay too much attention

To the dimension of making a song

Show the connections you've drawn

Make sure the chorus gets stuck in their head

On a loop id rather let it all loose

I got a voice for my feelings to live through

So why don't I set it to use

I got the memories I'm blocking mentally

Also got some that be getting me through

And the worst times when I look back

And remember the moments that helped as I grew

Be my guess and stay with me here

Cause reflections are always one hell of a view

Since we both got nothing better to do

Look at the first time I felt that I was ready to dish out a verse for a small crowd

Look at me settling down at my moms house

Look at my dad throwing pitches to me everyday while he holds a 9 to 5 job down

Look at the day that I graduated and its all smiles

But my parents been separated for a long while

So they only ever met at odd times

Walking in the auditorium I saw them lock eyes

My dad told my mother "I say we did a pretty good job right"

She nods twice

I can see it in a soft light

Cause that small moment was some thawed ice

In a long stretch full of cold shoulders

Now I'm all over that one notion

Now my life brought them both closer

So that prides showing and I thrive on it

Look at me rapping my graduation speech

Made about writers block

And embracing the life you got

Either way we gotta wait and see

But that patience bleeds across the keyboard that I'm making these on

Look at me falling in love and maintaining the faith that were made to belong

Look at me throwing a drake cd on

Look at the friends who were there to lean on

Me and my sisters are playing b ball

Early autumn all the maple trees are different colors on the shady green lawn

Man that's where I couldn't wait to be on

Now I see the golden days could be gone

This a hard question to ask

Could you accept if the highlights of you're life were already passed

Its only up hill from here so there's really no reason for getting attached

Its all for the best if you count your blessing

Learn your lessons and never look back

Bitch ima get in my bag

I'm way ahead of my class

I could tell that I was a gifted writer so I wasn't too present in math

I do not get why they're mad

That all of the tensions subtract

I see the easy route but I've decided that I'm ditchen the map for a treacherous path

Living like Kennedy's last day stay driving till I'm done breathing

Amen if you believe it

I don't like to be the one preaching

Cause gods speed can't outrun demons

Never feeling like enough either

Even when I'm with my close people

Someone gotta be the odd one out

Guess that's a problem we'll call even

Summer baby always been in winter I was born in the wrong season

Trynna bring out my emotions I'm coping about smoking and joy for the raw feelings

Goosebumps on your arm really

It ain't even about the bars now but their over your heads like car ceilings

Hole in one on the court eating

You'll be lucky if you par 3'd it

Who the fuck is giving y'all freebies

Kinda looking like its all teamwork

No squads mean shit cause they all switch cubs like golf teachers

In a quick year I can promise to you when its all over they will not need you

But its easier to fade away

Praying praying for a change of fate

Time degrading at a crazy pace

Now or never yeah its make or break

Hate to wait for a later day you can tell my parents ima make a name For the little boy they gave a safe space to

Who am I if I ain't grateful

Bet they want the Teletubby days back when their son had a baby face

It'll kill me when I lay the grave

So I know I gotta give the greatest thanks

Life's a game and its paid to play but I'll play it straight

Anything I'm bringing to the table

Only possible cause you saved a space

For me let me say the grace oh yeah

Aye, you wanna know about me

Well that's me

Yeah, cut it, that's it