Released on April 23, 2022

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[Intro]

And there he is!

Oh thank god

Everyone don't worry

He's been caught red handed


[Verse 1]

It all went downhill quick

And it tore him to pieces

He's shaking, clutching his phone with his dad on the line

He said "Man up, grow some balls, it's fucking fine"

He doesn't remember all the passes and the plays

All the happy faces cheering

The only thing that he remembers was the call and flashing lights

Red and blue were all he could see when he arrived

It ripped him apart but he couldn't even speak

He just cried every tear he never cried before

Every kid in school said he had no heart

No one heard him when he started to shriek

For you to come back to him, you made him feel alive for once

He's trying to erase the memories

But he can't erase you from his mind


[Chorus]

Every single fucking day he gets calls saying

"How you holding up bud? How you holding up bud?"

And every single fucking day he says

"I want to be with her not here, not here"

It's not like dying was your worst fear

"I would do anything for that girl, and she would do anything for me" he said

"But I never, ever thought that she would be dead"


[Verse 2]

They say "Hey dude, how's your girlfriend? Oh I forgot she's dead, sorry"

"I already know that, asshole and you'll be the dead one next"

The teachers take him aside and tell him how much they're worried

He always booked away and left in a hurry

Every thought swirling in his head, every bad thing he's ever thought

And he wish the Grim Reaper would just let him get caught


[Chorus]

Every single fucking day he gets calls saying

"How you holding up bud? How you holding up bud?"

And every single fucking day he says

"I want to be with her not here, not here"

It's not like dying was your worst fear

"I would do anything for that girl, and she would do anything for me" he said

"But I never, ever thought that she would be dead"


[Outro]

And he told himself that you would love him anyway

He promised he did it all for you

All the bullies and the pick me girls

He did it all for you

And when he's on the tv

Being carried away to the car

He said he did it all for you

And that you would love him anyway

Even without the rose colored glasses you knew

He did it all for you