Like a crossword, I often try to find the perfect letters

Just to merge together into words I utter but I'm awkward

Not a talker, no i tend to mutter, stutter when i speak

I get these flutters and feel weak like I’m performing at a concert when I converse

Every syllable a struggle

Every sentence I attempt it leaves me feeling so disgruntled

Like just leave me in my bubble

Why attempt to socialize when I can close my eyes and never deal with any trouble

Not a poltergeist, but I tend to ghost my friends

Messages left on read and plans left open-ended

Like a batter who keeps missing, yeah my mood will swing a lot

I'm full of energy one second but the next it's like my batteries are missing

Ecstasy to languor in an instant

So don’t bother tryina message me, I‘ll anxiously dismiss it

Yeah don't try to blow my phone up, I saw your notifs show up

I'm not ignoring you i only want a little distance

I won't be far

My introvertigo has got me drained, i need to recharge

If social energy was like a game I'd need a green bar

And before each conversation i would save so that in case I feel ashamed I'd be less lame the second play-through when i restart

Pick the perfect dialogue at checkpoints

But I prefer my time alone in solitude with less noise

And honestly the best choice, is staying locked inside

While I daydream of an exit route that's paved with dotted lines...

Yeah, that's paved with dotted lines

And hopefully one day I can escape and go outside

But for now I’ll just remain within safety of my mind... yeah

Like a crossword, I often try to find the perfect letters

Just to merge together into words I utter but I’m awkward

Not a talker, no i tend to mutter, stutter when i speak

I get these flutters and feel weak like I'm performing at a concert when I... converse