I'm like the eighth soul you've stolen

Past is what I've been holding

Planning on going up

But I'm empty without you home and

Dreams and visions come hear to die

I'm barely living a life

With stressing like every night

And the power inside is right

I think I'm losing control

When you told me to move on

I honestly felt broke

You're only willing to show

Exactly what side you know

Too bad you never knew us

I wanted to call it home

Holding on what we had

There's barriers in our path

We're needing to break through

Or you won't come back

Now everbody has had it

Everybody looks plastic

Fake

They made dating you relatable

So ask them

When they're planning to break it

Making only mistakes

The pacifist in my soul

Was only willing to take you

And now you're fake too

And now this mistake glued

In the deepest part of my sub-concious

To change moods

How could I blame you?

It's always the same truth

That you wanted him

Yet I was the one to save you

I sent over a text

That always meant

And I couldn't say it directly

Cause I've been scared of perfection

If only you got the message

Cancelled it when I sent it

I've been searching for you

While we've been losing connection

Always trying to pretend it

Instead of trying to defend

All the meaning

Because you said that

I'm only here for a sec

While regretting all of these feelings

You never knew that I had

I'm sorry for all the pain

I really wanna go back

I feel the misery that

It's piercing my heart in half

For always choosing you first

When you've been choosing me last

I'm missing back in the past

Where no one cared about weight

Or shape

These fake friends you said

You would never date

But

Now you hate us

And you contemplate trust

Like every choice that I've made

Is the same place of

Needing help

Looking for someone else

Plenty fish in the sea

But all I'm feeling are shells

Washed inside my heart

Mindset's in hell

The spell is broken

And you're provoked to tell me

What

And how I can connect again

I'm searching for someone to trust

Not to take a second guess

You left

And I wish you best

You're more

When I'm feeling less

You know

That I was obsessed

With you

When you wore a dress

Sorry but I just vent

Alone inside my of my head

And saying I'm not as good as you

Probably wanting me dead

Always forgot to tell you

How much worth that I held to

So much love

It would melt you

You'd help when no one else will

Frozen heart in a stone

I promised love on my bones

With all this family supporting me

Guiding me where to go

But I can handle my own sh*t

And all of these fake pricks

With mixed emotions

Soaking up on the same script

So let me flip it

I'm driven to make a difference

This chapter won't ever finish

Until you finally listen

We're distant

But that won't change us

I feel like I played dumb

Writing 'bout a girl

That's holding my hold world up

Won't ever get it

Still wondering why you said

All these memories you'll forget

And that's actually when you left

So

I guess I'll let go

And hope you the best

Know that I'm always here

Inside our minds and soul