[Intro]

Yuh

*sniff* Aye

Let's make a note to yo' self bitch

[Verse 1]

Yuh, I told myself that I won't stop, told my self to hold on

Told myself to pay my debts but shit I'm still far gone

I told myself to do everything they said I couldn't do

I told myself to do, everything better then you

I got a beat for a song, I got some lines to go along

I changed my habits 'cus I'd rather live than fucking die young

I got some thoughts, all locked up inside my brain

I wish that I could mute them cus they're drivin' me insane

I dropped out of school that shit was never on my bucket list

Pouya warned me about it my future got dismissed. 

I've broken many things, and keep doing it every time

I wasted my last dollars on some Spotify and wine

I lost my job, so I don't make any money

I hope my voice will be heard, it's all I've got left on me

I'm tryna figure out what the fuck I wanna do

But to be really honest I don't really have a clue

[Hook]

I told myself many things, I said I wouldn't do

But I still did that and I made myself fool

I told myself that I'd never take my life so instead

I used the knife to cut the noose that's not the way I choose

I told myself it will get better so please don't forget

That you've got many years to go so please don't be upset

I told myself its okay to smile, Its all in your head

Give it some time until your demons are dead

[Verse 2]

I've sold some games cus I was scared to death

Of all the bills that I have, did it with pain in my chest

Now I'm taking a rest, I'm laying down in my bed

I'm thinking about the dreams that I used to have

So I just, finish my joint, I take the final puff

I roll another joint, just one wasn't enough

This is no cry for help, nor a suicidal note

Just a message to myself, so I will never lose hope. (Yuh)

I struggle to tell my emotions when I speak

So I'd rather write my words down and rap 'em to a beat

I'm just a skinny white boy and I don't have much

I've got some talent and rhymes, I hope that that is enough

My name is still unknown, I bet nobody ever heard of it

Hi my name is mage, I don't mumble this is old school bitch

I just started and I am here to stay

So don't fear that I'll run or that ill leave someday, aye

[Hook]

I told myself many things, I said I wouldn't do

But I still did that and I made myself fool

I told myself that I'd never take my life so instead

I used the knife to cut the noose that's not the way I choose

I told myself it will get better so please don't forget

That you've got many years to go so please don't be upset

I told myself its okay to smile, Its all in your head

Give it some time until your demons are dead