Maybe it’s just bad luck

Maybe it’s worse

Maybe it’s just bad luck

Maybe I’m cursed

Cursed to walk the earth in this skin

While paranoid delusions come creeping in

I try to fix my mind, learn to fill in the gaps

But everyday feels like another relapse

I don’t think they’ll ever let me free

Round and round my mind they go

When they'll stop I don't fucking know

Everyday I feel so goddamn trapped

Ready to crack

It’s another relapse

I don’t have thoughts my thoughts have me

I know every single thing that I lack

And what I’ve lost I’ll never get back

I can’t control anything from my past

Cause what I’ve lost is still not enough. It’s another relapse

But I’ll never turn back to your so called savior

Even while I hold myself prisoner

I may be my own hostage

Forget my faith, I’m glad I lost it

No prayers

No pleas

I won’t live my life on my knees

No grace

No peace

I can’t trust more than I see