(One more shot, 'cause)

(I feel like you're up to something)

(I bet you're up to something)

(Scandalous) ay

(Taste my bitter heart)

(I know it makes you blush) yeah, ay

[Endeshaw]

Emotions cuffed to the table, yes he's interrogating

His self-projection and prejudice, pride and payments for privilege

Want support but no pity cause I just dug a grave

And I don't wanna sleep in it like it's 17

When I slept in my grandma's whip cause ignorance is bliss and I was kissing it

Felt like novocaine, numbing my senses like a few tokes and a few strokes and

Another distraction, I'm passing a pack of cigarettes and sex

Karma tweaking hasn't caught up to me yet

Yeah, ay

I be distressed while she dis-dressed

Can't give her what she needs, knowing damn well I'm only helping

Pass the time a little quicker

Holding hands, fingers locked, now they slipping

I'm sweaty, palmed and doubting intentions

Double checking my intuition

Don't see a way forward

Sorry to the women I slept with

Energy was imbalanced

And there was no aftercare

I really did care

That you believe it now

Ay, yeah

Reap what you sow and I sow the seed of uncertainty

Filled with an empty feeling of pain, regret and humility

Hope you're sleeping better with me out the picture

Know I'm breathing better, I don't feel the pressure

And if I see you on the street, I ask for God to give you peace

Cause pain was never the intention

I was looking for a part of me in your reflection

You were looking for a part of me you never mentioned

Lessons, learn too late to test them

Yeah

Hope you get this message

Yeah

I look to the moon to illuminate at my darkest hours

I'm the son of a farmer, father in high power

I reap the benefits of seeds sown by social misfits

I am a dog, destiny, only greatness

Yeah, I'm too affected to fake this

[Young Crow]

Yeah, okay

Yeah, call me naive, cause I dared to believe

That a white kid from the right side of the tracks could be a G

It couldn't be farther from the truth

And though I lacked the knowledge and skills

And though those were something I could build

Nothing could beat the authentic mind of someone who killed

These were the people I was exposed to

And who knew that my parents had raised someone who dreamed of taking lives

And lay awake hearing voices in the night

I shunned the outside world for not giving me the respect I thought I deserved

Lashing out because I wanted to be heard

Clearly I need some therapy or someone to take care of me

And see to it that in my pursuit of money and power

I don't fall victim to the death of a coward

Couldn't relate to his parents, saw his family as a hindrance

His confidence came from the violence he could inflict on others

From the drugs he sold to his brothers

And the slow infection of his mind that would be his undoing

Polluting the very air that he breathed

Till it was thick and impossible to see the truth for what it was, this happened to me

Constant chatter in my mind, the overbearing voices telling me lies

At this time you could look into my eyes and see my mind was gone

My head was full of songs that I thought shaped reality, until finally I reached out and attempted to leave the city

I ended up in a psych ward, where the people inside heard me speak the words of a broken mind

Rocking back and forth, talking to myself at times so loud I was told to be quiet, I was a shy kid

It was as if my mind was another person's, with music I tried to drown it out

But I ended up drowning when they held me down

And injected me with the medications I refused to take

Because my delusions wouldn't take a break

They were afraid of me and finally I felt the power to desire the hold

But at what cost, I was lost

[Endeshaw]

Yeah, check 1-2 on my birthday

Woke up, nobody's home

But there's a knock on the door, it was my sister

Could see distress on her face

Calculating, my mind is racing I think I'm fine, but that's far from the truth

I'm imitating and masking, fever dream must be having, I've been looking for

Help

(Scandalous)

(Taste my bitter heart, I know it makes you blush, but)

(One more shot, 'cause)

(I feel like you're up to something)

(I bet you're up to something)