[Verse 1]

Feel embarrassed when I’m honest

I break things just like your promise

I’m too scared to read my comments

I hold on to what you said

I take lies to fill my head

Most the time I hold my breath

Overthinkin' 'bout what’s next

Left on read just like a text

When express how I feel instead of tryna flex

You want me to rap different, eyes twitchin', act different

Bullets missin', snakes hissin', I don’t wanna act anymore

My wounds are not healed, I still feel sore

My girl introduced mе to her friends

I just stay silent, feel safеr when I stay quiet

They probably think I’m weird but that’s okay

Have all the words in my head

I just don’t know how to say it

I’m socially awkward, I feel like a broken kid

I feel like I cannot be fixed

Too stuck, no way out

I get invited to parties, but I just never leave my house

Feel like nobody listens to my music

I feel like I doubt myself too much and it’s mentally abusive

This ain’t my last album, it’s too depressin'

Hate puttin' out music when they don’t get the message

I feel like I’m not good enough

My brothers tell me to be a man, I don’t wanna always feel tough

I lie to myself beyond the surface

I live most of my life feelin' nervous

I feel laughed at, attacked bad

I’ve been thinkin' too much

Maybe I don’t think enough

Blast my life on the 'gram, but the internet cannot define who I really am

No one can

Tell me how you feel, but I just waste my time

Told me to call you, but you said you’re busy

You just hit decline

If you’re listenin' to the song, please don’t take it wrong

This is just how I felt, I think I need help

It’s okay, it’s better if I fix it myself

I place this chapter in the shelf

Save me, I’m suicidal

Depressed is the new story, then I guess I’m the title

Killin' myself in the same way as my idols

Say the Devil holds an idol, but I just have a tight grip and this blade won’t slip, I hate this

But it’s all I ever known

First attempt at four years old, 16 years later, nothing’s changed

Except few faces were made from that day

Bros gone, old friends passed away

They had roses on every casket so they know it’s me

I’m destined to be depressed and lonely see the anxiety closin' in on me

I guess I’m a mess

Haven’t found the reason to fix me yet

I complain out the way, it doesn’t really make sense

I won’t take the medication they give me 'cause I’m still convinced it took my momma’s breath

Tell lies inside my ears for years in search for the truth

Just make sure you tell 'em

Just make sure you tell 'em

[Hook]

Just make sure you tell my family it’s okay, I’m sorry

If you’re late, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry

But I can’t stay, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

Just make sure you tell my family it’s okay, I’m sorry

But it’s too late, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry

But I can’t stay, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

[Verse 2]

I understand if I seem like a lunatic ramblin' to you

Barrel to the temple, but I’ll never shoot

Askin' for a shine, or a light to shine through

But I do another line or smoke up another blunt in my room

I act like I’m fine and put a up a fun just to get through (Just to get through)

When I die, just throw away my ashes

They say I’m too dramatic

If you heard the stuff I wrote, I’d catch you by the throat

Now, I don’t plan on being no G.O.A.T

Year 2019 made me feel like I’m drownin’, I still struggle to float

I don’t do drugs, but you can say I’m an addict to the rappin'

'Cause I’m automatic, I like to take shots but get shot down

Oops, I’m shot now, how could I fall off if I never fell down

I say it loud and I say it proud

I speak my mind, that’s all that matters

People like my style, I’m flattered

Lyrics don’t mean a thing in 2019, look at these rappers, they promotin' hazards

Always try my best to do right

But bein' myself is the hardest part of my life

Just tell 'em

[Hook]

—My family it’s okay, I’m sorry

If you’re late, I’m sorry, too much weight, I’m sorry

I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry

But I can’t stay, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

Just make sure you tell my family it’s okay, I’m sorry

But it’s too late, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

I don’t wanna live to see another day, I’m sorry

But I can’t stay, I’m sorry, too much weight, you know me

Just make sure you tell my family it’s okay, I’m sorry

But it’s too late, I’m sorry