[Intro]

I just wanna feel something

[Verse]

Open a text, I shouldn't have read it

I'm lost in my thoughts, I' rather be dead

I'm thinkin' too much, all that shit goes straight to my head

Maybe it's nonsense, or maybe I'm toxic, maybe I lost it

I gave it my best, and she want someone else, I likely caused it

Life ain't a remote, I can't pause it

I can't pause it

I wish I can skip to where it ends

Is it still gonna end up with us bein' friends?

Please don't be mad, I'm just writin' how I feel

I broke into pieces, assume I'm too numb to feel

Honestly, I hate cryin' into a mic in order to prove I'm real

Without music I'm a broken record

Always testin' my girl to see if she's a lie detector

When she tries to help me I just reject her

I put my life out there to showcase like a TV projector

Sometimes I snoop and research my people

Hopin' I don't find somethin' true

I just wanna be equal

3 a.m., havin' panic attacks

Wishin' my happiness will last

I ruin relationships 'cause I treat it like it's my past

When I see things I didn't wanna know, my brain starts to move fast

I don't go out no more 'cause I get pushed to the sidewalk like trash

A voice in my head tells me to stop it

But I run and run from the situation, I guess I'll drop it

Knowin' I'm still holdin' a grudge

I hate myself, I've had enough

I've had enough

[Outro]

I've had enough

I hate myself

Should not run

I hate myself