Final Failure - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I don’t understand I’ve been feeling so tired

Why I’ve been down, I know that’s hard wired

In my brain, no escape, no hole in the wall

I’m the boy cried wolf, no goal in my call

Can’t smoke now, it’s a no-fly zone

Said I know better, I don’t know why though

Wanna be at home alone with no sense of hesitating

Wonder why I’m even rapping when I’m self deprecating

Taking this suboxone, that’s a form of the therapy

That I needed in my life, there’s no one else that I care to be

I’m the only one I’m needing when I make a decision

I got a picture of the way I wanted, fuck a division

Life’s been bleak, walking on a thin piece

Of ice that I cracked and that’s only this week

I don’t foretell that I’ll even survive

And to me I’m surprised that I’m breathing at night

This is my final failure, I need a hidden savior

Desperation has struck a nerve, this separation’s what I deserve

This is my final failure, I need a hidden savior

Desperation has struck a nerve, this separation’s what I deserve

No, I don’t recall, I don’t need recollection

Of all the shit I’ve ever done, they can judge a complexion

But not the character apparent that you put on in public

You so unfavored by the mass and that’s so hard to stomach

Got a bad habit, I won’t stick to commitment

I try to get around and break every drinking restriction

When they’re searching and seizing, they take my drug apparatus

I never cared about a label or reduction to status

I’m an outcast but I bet I’ll outlast

Any shitty damn rapper seeking for a clout pass

Said the top’s where you been at but I fucking doubt that

Dropped the mic on the stage when you made the crowd laugh

Shaped by the bad, ain’t shaped by the good

Stand up straight, well, I know that I should

But it ain’t so convenient or easy or simple

I know by the time I’m gone, they’ll miss the signal

This is my final failure, I need a hidden savior

Desperation has struck a nerve, this separation’s what I deserve

This is my final failure, I need a hidden savior

Desperation has struck a nerve, this separation’s what I deserve