With every drink downed there’s my life that I shorten

Inflamed insides acting I can afford it

I’ll get a transplant then I’ll be good as new

But it would never be the future that I’ll be looking to

Bad routines ain’t claiming I’m clean

They don’t know ways out they will serve the machine

Won’t prepare today maybe put the belt aside

Save it for a rainy day guess I’m waiting there inside

Taking diuretics I bet it’s a death sentence

Stepping out without a mask occupying the medics

I couldn’t fathom a life without my addiction

And we could never get right still creating this friction

Opposites attract ain’t that feeling a fact

To tell the truth I just wanted someone to distract

Me from driving off in a reckless attempt

To see what’s on the other side when you get to the end

I’m in a prison I’m tied down and captive

My head’s hiding elsewhere easily distracted

I can’t let go of what I’m beholden

I won’t give in no I won’t be folding

Voice in my head tormenting then a taunt

Try to ask what’s the reason but await in no response

My irrational pleasures I find enjoyment in blow

I took a good look around waking up in the snow

It’s no to money the leeching the people who feed

They want a cut out my pocket from the way that I lead

You wanna be me till the moment we meet

You see the things I worry bout then you don’t see the need

Wallow in hate and my misanthropy

I wonder when I’m gonna start living happily

They tell me hold out lights at the end of the tunnel

I’m going 90 miles an hour I’m about to unbuckle

And off the side of the road deteriorate in a field

Yeah we could feel the impact of the fence and the wheels

No alcohol in my body I did it with full intent

The smell of burning gasoline that I’ve grown to resent

I’m in a prison I’m tied down and captive

My head’s hiding elsewhere easily distracted

I can’t let go of what I’m beholden

I won’t give in no I won’t be folding