Lately I just ain't myself

My conscious told me not to and I disobeyed myself

Prolly cuz I hate myself

And we were really thuggin

4 in the morning Christmas morning we was hustling

We was on the block bundled up with them bundles

House around the corner get heated by the oven

Wanna go in but the money ain't been comin

My brothers wake up he gon need to eat something

Lord why you put this on me if you love me

All it make me hate myself

Had a 3 way with Quana

That was all I got that year

I still got hеr panties somewherе

Her man got shot that year and I swore to her

If I knew who did I would tell her but I didn’t

I ain't giving up my brody

Bitches run-in round they got bodies in my city

Even my lil chick been shot boi you pussy

Pissin for my partners cuz all ofem dirty

PO call im nervous

(oh we were really trippin)

They say they gon hold me down how I know

I dont tell my brother that I love him cuz I dont

Ain't seen him in 15 years and I hope

That when I see him that Im ready with my pole

Money in the bread bag all underground

I had *** dig it up he claim he dont know me now

& I heard *** want smoke tellem blow

If you my brother just avenge me when I fall

Late at nite is when I hate myself

Ol E gone now he coulda use my help

I carried that weight myself

When im weak you say I ain't myself

Aye & but we were really thuggin

My blood got a disease in it can't get rid of

My ex put a hex on me I can't get rid of

My sister set me up out here blood dont mean nothin

Blood dont mean nothin

My bitch take the bag out her coochie then we fuckin

My people got HIV from shooting something

I hung over the bridge on saginaw w the pump and

Tear drop something

We dont ride until I look in the eyes of everyone of em

Boi I love black he knows I risk my lil life for em

If dog woulda blew my head back that day I still dont take it back I ain't dyin in the spital

And im happy Cobie came home

And I pray that Budder calm down

Boi im really on one

And I talked to J on the phone we walked 10 of his 15 down

He said stay your ass outside

I melt in my god kids eyes

I know god sees me through her

I see murder with mine

All I feel is pain in my heart and my mind so fuck it we riding

I got Glocks I got 30s

Lately I just ain't myself

My conscious told me not to and I

Disobeyed myself

Prolly cuz I hate myself

We were really thuggin

My blood got a disease in it can't get rid of

My ex put a hex on me I can't get rid of

My sister set me up out here blood dont mean nothin