Yeah, 5 letters, h-a-p-p-y

Found a person who would never wanna see me die

It was jaahiliyyah (yeah)

I was just that gassed yute, I never really checked my niyyah

She was different and I liked it

Took out my supply kit

Smile & a buttoned shirt I just wanted to wife it

But I had to try harder

Jokes, laughter

Eventually we started getting Vybz like Gaza

I was living in a dream

Picture perfect scenes

Of a frame of little kids and our faces in between

She was a beautiful soul with such eyes I’ve never seen

You ever heard the saying you work better in a team

Cos I can tell you that it’s true

This feeling felt new

She would come and change the mood

Every time it felt blue

She was a way better highlight than the ones I found in Kiko (facts)

I was sick, and this girl was my placebo

At the time, things were more than fine

I’m tryna secure the bag, feel like I'm running out of time

Cuz she’s beautiful (yeah), and every other guy’s got an eye on her

And she would crease every time they would try on her

That’s when I felt it was a 2 way thing

I would see her everyday, after 2 days in

And it would really break me if I ever saw her very teary

I don’t wanna be the problem I was moving wary

So I would concentrate every time you type

Was never the best was just a guy who tried

And when we tried she kept hitting me with news

Expecting me to leave cos she thinks I’m like them yutes

Who wanna use and abuse

I just told her that I’m here

Just tell me everything at once you know I’ll lend an ear

I understood maybe she thought I’d be judgemental

I had to let her know her values sentimental

You’re a clean hearted queen, the Lord can’t ban you

So never let a waste man determine your value

She was like a mother, child-bearing individual

But more like an investment cos the loves so residual

But things got tense like the tones that I’m speaking in

Went separate ways with unjustified reasoning

It never comes from one, maybe her circle were feeding in

Together we had sauce now we’re missing basic seasoning

How? How did it come to this?

I was alive now I need deep comforting

I held her in my heart, not in my hand

Lost a bro too man I used to be the man

Got me thinking why do things never go to plan

Took some time away I’ll be better when I land

I said, I’ll be better, I’ll be better when I land

Took some time away I’ll be better when I land

And Lord I know it’s only You when I’m hurting

Every single time I get close it stops working

Please don’t even look me in my eyes the pain shows

So I gotta make a situation bless me 10 folds

Man it ain’t about the cheque

Deeper meanings just something you wouldn’t get

So broke, collecting pennies that’s something I won’t forget

And my sleep ain't the same bro, heavy is the chest

Cuz a wise man said modern slavery is debt

Sometimes I cry, I’m joking, I just water my eyes

Cuz deep down I’m really thinking when they die, Imma die

And I'm searching for a breakthrough

Everyday I try, everyday I try, tryna make it in this life

At times I’m happy but my mental state is poor

Now tell me what’s gon happen when that thought leads to thought

Then that thought leads to a thought

And that thought leads to a thought

Now I made a situation, I’m the judge of cloud court

Staring at the ceiling, tryna find the meaning

I barely go to sleep but when I go to sleep I’m dreaming

Drop more poetry, listeners are fiending

Little do they know their little hero needs healing

Praying while he’s kneeling, shaytan third wheeling

We haven’t lost touch, we’ve just all lost feeling

Bros on the G wing, isn’t so appealing

He’s telling me Al7amdulilah, while he’s concealing

And these past few years, I’ve seen fluctuation in peers

Volume's the equation, now my circle is a sphere

I’m on that 3D-ish 3 g’s shall suffice

If they’re stingy dividing pies

You best be watching who’s near

Remember I was lonely you wouldn’t lend me an ear

I felt it in them-organs now they all calling me Piers

Seen invasions in my home from governmental arrears

Now I’m lyrically evolving, you want a share of my cheers

You took a loss, you're fired now you gotta pay the price

I took my eyes off the rats cos I was busy watching Mice

I feel like Lenny in disguise

Cos to me they’re Curley's wives

In them full rouged lips tryna fill above their thighs

That’s dead to me ...

Before you Twitter neeks send for me

I promise that your better than the person you pretend to be

You did him dirty when you found out he’s a good brudda

Now your in trouble cos you settled for that hood brudda

But it’s all good when you’re messaging writing a para

You just needed fixing, he came with the spanner

He gets abusive your deluded ignoring the matter

Til there’s 2 arms to your head like Mo Farah

Now tell me, is that love that you’re feeling

Stuck now your healing, heads in the ceiling huh?

Is that love that you’re feeling

Stuck now your healing, heads in the ceiling...

And you’re about to hear another chapter

A chapter you’d probably just skip by

And now I know you’re tired of this guy

Preaching but I promise you it’s different this time

Because our hearts have set sail and now it’s clear that it’s time for departure

So I wanna give my happiness away to you and die as a martyr

Have a javelin rip right through my chest

A bullet strike right in my head

And if anything happens just know that I’m willing to help you, your mother sister brother and father

I’m also here if things ever get mad and the little ones need looking after, but that’s if you need me

And even though I don’t have power

I still pray, everyday

And I ask Allah to shower his blessing amongst you and your family and ease your affairs because deep down it’s hard to look past a beautiful soul who really cares

Now just like Isa, I want you to listen close and pay attention to the first letters of the next few lines

Join those letters up and you’ll know the type of person that I want in my life

I want a, Motherly, Adorable, Righteous, Individual, Admiring, Myself

And I know how to achieve iman

But that’s not what I need to keep me in the best of health

I’ll be there when life is a roller coaster with a crazy dip like stealth

And I’ll be there, if I ever make it and you and your family need me in terms of wealth but sometimes in life, the soul is designed to need a break

But sometimes this break, could really break someone’s heart and leave them thinking in the dark

With cloudy thoughts of things that happened in the past

So I wish you the best

Because a heart so pure filled with care is a lot more than just a inner chest

And my iman...

My iman has been through more dippings than South London

And lately I’ve just been on that, soul searching journey trying to find happiness in abundance but the crazy thing is

I know what I need to do in order for me to get that

I need to, stop my sins, increase in worship

But in reality it’s just, setback after setback and now my mind is jet black, I just can’t think straight

And I’ve never been brought up to swear, so now it’s just like... for flips sake I never had a best mate... that’s just another pi double s take

I’m a king, I had a queen

We ended up at checkmate

My life’s got no tekkers & it’s left me with a chequered... vision

Why does pain multiply when there’s division

It's crazy how the dead souls are living

My mind is in prison, my heart needs submission

I’m just stuck in disposition

Seeing black, it’s dark, and the white is just my white flag waving

I’m drowning

Quick. I need to find air man, this ship ain’t sailing

I’m failing

My blood pressure's high and my iman is so low

I’m with all of these guys but not a single soul to phone

And they still have the nerve to ask me why I’m so cold

Ayo shout out all the homeless up in Tottenham Court Road

It’s mad! Everything I had just slipped out of my palms

And sometimes we might need that person in our arms

To just remind us about life and why we’re really here

But, now they’re not here it’s like happiness ain’t near

And it’s crazy how I stay up stupid times in the night

Waiting for a sign to show me that it might just happen

But I end up being saddened ... at the fact that I’m no one

And sometimes I have nothing to give so it breaks me to know that I can no longer hold on

My hands have got rope burn and my options are so vast

But the feeling ain’t the same cuz I’m so used to hearing your laugh

It echoes in my head

Only God knows the amount of tears that were shed

Rest in peace it’s the end, but the love is never dead (x2)