X:

I’m young and I’m positive

Two things that I’ve never not been, but

Growing up in a world so cold

It made it hard for a kid to not lose hope--

Am I just a voice for a lost generation?

The ignorance of people taught me to be patient

So be patient, and stay humble

Defeat the hatred, and watch the walls crumble

Don’t let the pain of the world steal your smile

Don’t let the concrete tame what was once wild

I run wild- no borders and no fences

Tobacco in the wind, in all four directions

17 years through obsidian eyes

Sailed across the ocean on meridian lines

To where oblivion lies, shit I'm ahead of my time

I'm just a young fool chasing the sunrise

Is it just me

Or is it this city

Lights have been swallowing me

Who would believe

A beautiful mess

Beautiful mess

Could break free

I guess we’ll see

N:

Damn, what have I become?

There’s a man in the mirror I’ve been tryin’ to run from

Sober- I don’t wanna wait till I get older

Addiction- ‘phetamines are feeding me

An eye phone screen of anxiety

Little boy inside of me is scared

Yeah, but he’s a survivor

Medicated, and hated himself for it

Left home to forage and face God in the forest

Bypass- sorting through the trauma

The loss of the feminine is a lot for momma

I’m guilty of abusing power

Retrieve my soul, I’ve been a coward

Pornagrophy distorted by perception of women

Who’d given into him again and agani

It’s a fucking sickness

Forgive him, he was just a child

Receive him, as he reconciles

Is it just me

Or is it this city

Lights have been swallowing me

Who would believe

A beautiful mess

Beautiful mess

Could break free

I guess we’ll see

X:

Most youth chase nothing, no sense of direction

Pressured to fit into these boxes be perfect in a world of imperfection

We don't celebrate laughter, a greater purpose, or pursuing your passion

And I'm trapped in my mind and the only escape is when I'm on stage rapping

Where your test scores seem to mean more

Than feeling alive and finding out what you breathe for

I feel something missing

My generation should dream more

Broken wings

Broken hearts

Broken world will fall apart

All that I've done is not enough

There's too damn much

I can't control

And I can't let go

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders

I feel the guilt of never getting sober

I feel for you

If never felt love

I feel the pressure of trying to grow up

I feel that blade, I feel the scars

I feel the fear of not knowing who we are

The hate, the love, the tears that we shed

For those that we lost buried with their regrets

And this is deeper than words

Deeper than the depression of the kids in the burbs

The pain of being alive, that shit still hurts

Prescribed by a doctor, but these pills don't work

Overmedicate the youth from East to West Coast

Scars on your wrists, written suicide notes

This is your life to live, not your life to take

I'm sick and tired of the mistakes we make, yeah

Is it just me

Or is it this city

Lights have been swallowing me

Who would believe

A beautiful mess

Beautiful mess

Could break free

I guess we’ll see

S:

The reason we hurt

The reason we die

Humanity has yet to figure out how to speak, to ask why

Judgement, assumption, apathy were impossible to name

They didn’t exist until we allowed ourselves to stray

So far from truth’s story, that we became the afraid

Afraid no more, we will rise to unite

It’ll mean you’ll have dug to the roots of the hurt

We’ll have gone to the depths that we have yet to discover

To humanize the pain that we must intentionally uncover

And you’ll have returned to the surface

This tree growing strong

A new siren in your heart

Humanity will say thank you