When I Lose Control

By XATALBAZ

On VELVET PRESSURE VOL. 1

Released on January 30, 2026

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[Verse 1]

Most days I’m solid, cool, composed

Don’t need saving, I stay closed

Still, you walk in, and my calm just fades

Confidence cracked, but I’m not afraid

I run my world, I know my worth

Still get lost when it starts to hurt

I speak truth, I stand tall

But I forget myself when I want it all

Strong don’t mean I never shake

Love still finds the cracks it makes


[Hook]

I’m good, I’m grown, I’ve learned control

Still lose myself when I lose control

It’s real, it’s raw, it’s part of me

Strong enough to feel, still free


[Verse 2]

No mask, no filter, I’m all in

Balance tight between heart and skin

Don’t play games, I set the tone

Still sometimes I don’t come home

Power looks good till it starts to bend

Confidence softens, I just pretend

It’s not weak, it’s how I heal

I don’t hide what I feel

Don’t fix me, I’m not torn

I bend, but that’s how strength is born


[Final Hook]

I’m good, I’m grown, I’ve learned control

Still lose myself when I lose control

It’s real, it’s raw, it’s part of me

Strong enough to feel, still free