I lingered through the night

Pacing unfamiliar streets

Counting every mistake I've made

Neglecting those I love and destroying all I've worked for

I replay every act of desperation

I re-enact every chemical inhalation

As my lungs collapse my life flashes before me

I thought the shapes would fall into place

I was wrong

Solely to blame

I should have rewrote everything

All I have left is a guilty hatred

Aimed at all who surround me

This defeated demeanor

Stemmed from my hauntings

Brought a cruel insight to my isolation

Questions dwell on my conscience

Has my seclusion run its course?

Or will I die under the mountain?

Was it for sympathy?

Or a test of my indifference?

Sullen face and somber eyes

Cold hands and unforgivable lies

Can I ever change?