Only One Man - Intellectual

[Verse 1: Wiser Observer]

Truthfully I'm exhausted

I'm surprised I haven't lost it

I had a friend, heart-to-heart now and then

He said, "Tuma you know my pain, if I had your brain I would've offed it"

I told him, "Don't compare suffering

Suffering's just suffering"

He was my boy, I really cared about him

Shit, He's still my boy I still pray about him

And this my same boy, I later found out

My ex-girl has some feels for

That night when I came to his room to share my pain

She hid in the bathroom behind a closed door

I know we broke up, but what the fuck

You said you want to be friends and I ate it up

There's so much anger in me as I'm writing this

I'm sleeping alone and you both sleeping by his

And a couple days prior we sharing my bed kissing and touching 'cause friendship was hard to grip (What the fuck?)

And I know fucked up both times, but the guilt I've been caring don't justify this

You were my comfort I shared my all

How I'm scared for my sister, the stress on my mom

Four robberies, it keeps piling on

I need time to breath, can I please get a pause

[Hook: Wiser Observer]

I'm only one man

[Verse 2: Wiser Observer]

Four robberies, man what the fuck?

Is it my distance from God or I'm out of luck?

What else can it take, my minds now at stake

Assuming last year was my worst was my mistake

First time was after a show, my stomach was gunpoint

Second time walked away with fingers with cut joints

Third time, second break up, knife point took my phone

Fourth time, four guys, school bag with what I own

I've got noting left to give

I've got no more hope to give

We only care when it's convenient

What a way to live

That's why I had to suck it up and go visit my friend

In her hospital bed

But it's hard be there for somebody when you feel you got nobody and the bottom your soul feeling like death

Only one stronger than me is my little sister

Because she don't rely on any liquor

The things that I know, the things that I hold

Mypain on my track's the shit's getting old

The pain in my heart that's all that I know

My path's not on track and my mom's getting old

Hide your tears and be a man

But how I'm supposed to be a father figure that I never had

[Hook: Wiser Observer]

I'm only one man

[Verse 3: Wiser Observer]

I'm a victim, I'm an asshole, I'm a king

I'm bipolar, drown disorders in a drink

I'm so paranoid like all the time

Now it's like what is next now, where is the line?

Everyone's life got up and downs, but my downs aren't spaced out

Can I get time to shed a tear, just some time to pull a frown, fuck

Love from friends I appreciate it

But the Tuma you knew has deviated

Look in the mirror, practice my smile

Scream in my sleep, terrors at night

Half a bottle of gin I sleep for four hours

My mood's so erratic I'm having no power

Mama, my sister they still keep up the fight

I can't even say everything's gon' be alright

'Cause everybody going through something

Hope you're brave enough to say something

'Cause everybody else, everybody else keeps bluffing

I've been through a lot, stronger than most

I drink through my problems, weaker than most

God what did I do, what did I do

But I can't blame a God that I hardly ever pray to

[Hook: Wiser Observer]

I'm only one man