[Intro]

Monica: --this is Rachel, another Lincoln High survivor

This is everybody, this is Chandler, and Phoebe, and Joey, and- you remember my brother Ross?

Rachel: Sure! Hi!

Ross: Hey

Rachel: Oh!--

Ross: --you know you probably didn't know this, but back in high school, I had a, um, major crush on you

Rachel: I knew

Ross: You did?! Oh.... I always figured you just thought I was Monica's geeky older brother

Rachel: I did

Ross: Oh. Listen, do you think- and try not to let my intense vulnerability become any kind of a factor here--

[Verse 1]

I can't breathe and my chest hurts

I can't stop crying and I taste dirt

Clothed in the shower let the water run

Scars on my thighs make anothеr one

Suicide lines writе another one

God let me die I think I'm really done

I am not this strong pick another one

My head keeps pounding and my body's numb

I'm scared and I'm paranoid

The darkness and the silence make a lot of noise

Leave the TV on every single night

Hollow blue glow is my guardian light

I could really use a hug

I could really use a week in I've really had enough

I'm hungry and I'm nauseated

Lose a lot of memory when inebriated

[Hook]

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

[Verse 2]

Heavyset eyes I feel the sunrise

That's when I feel safe enough for a bedtime

An hour of sleep better than no sleep

It's at least what I think my logic's compromised

And that's assuming this monster does not swallow me whole (yeah)

And that's assuming I find the strength to fight on my own (yeah)

I just need some vitality to tear through the webs (yeah)

Cocooned by a sadness that just cradles my head (yeah)

Muscle atrophy man this room is a lot

Hermit in my room I'm ignoring the knocks

Shutting out the world so I'm keeping it locked

Can't explain to the healthy when you know you are not

Can't explain the pits when the walls are so thick

Every single shout is reduced to a click

So becomes a metronome just a beat to your life

And becomes a little easier saying you're fine

[Hook]

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

[Verse 3]

Interior wintery

Please do feel welcome inside, pardon the misery

Pardon the mess it's a painful maturity

Poor renovation no expectations of intimacy

Classified blueprints I'm always just keeping on me

I'll show you a couple rooms, floor plan's a tragedy

I'll show you my best side, stressed side, a little part of dead sides

Just enough for you to leave it alone

Emotional FOMO

You are not capable this poison work slow-mo

I'm trying to save you time I'm working pro bono

I'm really not trying to spill, I'm working on antidotes

Deja vu these conversations I've had them before (yeah)

Interviews, Jimmy Fallon you just want anecdotes (yeah)

Self-indulgence of prying open my catacombs (yeah)

Deja vu these conversations I've had them before

[Hook]

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here

And I think real hard how I've come so far

But I really want to start running

Really get away from here