I am on a rite of passage, but I can't seem to pass it

Maybe because I’m poor of heart I need to be

My own company

Can somebody help me

Sorry that I haven't got back to you

Was it the altitude was it the attitude

Or the pain that made me turn my back to you

Now looking at life in different views

Future, past, present, all jumbled like in Tenet

Living in a tension cause the trauma is the lieutenant

Emotional repression leads to aggression, depression also heard somеone else mеntion that

"Healing is only gained after you face the pain"

Vulnerability leads to malleability

That can lead your heart into virtue or villainy

I heard time heals all wounds, I don't think it’s true

The other day I heard someone say "they missed me" and I said "I miss me too"

There's just emotions frozen

I'm chipping away

I'm hoping one day to see my faded face

And it's true, I'd cross an ocean on cue

Just to get back to you

Kintsugi my broken heart, mend it with melted gold

Lord draw attention to the cracks so your story is told

How In the moments that are the darkest, You work the deepest

Trying to get back to myself has left me depleted

Like a Tiger beetle running blind trying to recoup

Going back all it did was left me in a Loop

Like a Butterfly trying to get back in the cocoon

Then trying to spread its wings realizing there is no room

Don't let it be in vain, every sacrifice you made

Don't avoid it dance with grief to the melody

Let your story be an assist, not a liability

I heard time heals all wounds, I don’t think it’s true

It's what you do with the time that is given that will heal you

There’s just emotions frozen

I'm chipping away

I'm hoping one day

To see my faded face

And it's true

I’d cross an ocean on cue

Just to get back to you

There's just emotions frozen

I'm chipping away

I'm hoping one day

To see a semblance face

And it's true

I'd cross an ocean on cue

Just to get back to you