Released on July 15, 2021

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All my intrusive thoughts, are making real desires

I want you to reach into me and uncross all my wires

Don't know where panic stops, and passion begins

I am an easy target, a natural masochist

It's painful, it hurts

...At least I know it should

There's only so much you can take before it feels good

Want things I shouldn't want

Want things I'd never say

You make me way too happy when i should be so afraid!

(CUT ME UP AND SEE WHAT COMES OUT

MAKE ME CRY AND SAVOUR THE SOUND

STITCH ME UP BEFORE I GET FOUND

SAVE ME FOR ANOTHER ROUND)

I want you to hate me

To just nauseate me

The pain is enticing

The fear is inviting

You're so damn adoring

It's so fucking boring

I'm asking politely

For you to exite me

Alarms are going off

The sound is killing me

The aching of my memories is inconveniencing

You are not threatening, you are not harming me

And that's more disturbing than any threat could ever be!

You hold me so close

Make me feel so safe

But I know that isn't love

Those aren't the rules of the game

Need you to make me bleed

Need you to make me scream

'Cause that's the only love I've known and that's the love I need!

(You make me feel special

You treat me so gentle

As if I deserve it

...As if I'm a person...)

I want you to hate me

To just nauseate me

The pain is enticing

The fear is inviting

You're so damn adoring

It's so fucking boring

I'm asking politely

For you to exite me

I want you to hate me

To just nauseate me

The pain is enticing

The fear is inviting

You're so damn adoring

It's so fucking boring

I'm asking politely

For you to exite me