screaming - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

I hear screaming all the time ever since I was like nine

And nobody is screaming, but they could be

So my senses heighten

It's inside my head, except it's not, except it is

It seems to start from stimuli inside the threshold

Far away enough to leave it open

For interpretation by my brain

Faster than I can ascertain, there is no danger

And cancel the unfolding anxiety attack

But it's too late to take it back

The volume of the TV's

On like three, but it's too much for me

Right now, at night, I hear it through the floor

And put my headphones on

And turn them up as loud as I can handle

So that I can finally get some peace and quiet

In my head, but when it's silent

It just makes me listen harder

'Cause you know, at any moment

I might have to spring into action

Or eavesdrop on my parents

'Cause they could be talking shit about me

How terrible would that be?

But really, I guess that it's gotten better

Since I stopped taking my medicine, the Ritalin

And other stimulants, they had me on

Were doing numbers on my psyche, even though they kind of helped me

Stupid doctor didn't tell me anything helpful, but I just let it go

'Cause he was really, really sexy, and intimidating

I loved when he touched my balls

And pressed his icy stethoscope against my chest

So he could hear my heartbeat just as loud and clear as it was

Echoing between my ears already

I hear Facebook sounds in every song, I hear my name in every noun

I hear my dog crying three times a day, and I'd get up and pet him

But he's dead, and every sound that sounds like him

Just makes me want to stick a needle in my ear

But then again, I'd probably still hear screaming every morning

And hear screaming every night

I'd still hear screaming when I'm home alone in the background

Of every song I listen to to kill the screaming

To kill the screaming