self destructive - Intellectual

[Verse 1]

Self-destructive tendencies that I have

Are killing me slowly but that's fine

I like the way it feels

Yeah, I, I like the way it feels

When I think that I'm leaving

And I hurt myself to prove that I'm human

Where did I go wrong this time?

If I don't wake up, I'm better off

I'll finally catch up on my sleep

I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts

Are building a new home just for me

If I don't wake up, I'm better off

I'll finally catch up on my sleep

I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts

Are building a new home just for me

Tell me I won't be this way forever

I can't do this for much longer

Does anyone give a fuck?

I don't think that's the case

I wanna be anywhere else but here

Lately, it's been getting hard to feel

But I'm getting used to it (I'm getting used to it)

If I don't wake up, I'm better off

I'll finally catch up on my sleep

I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts

Are building a new home just for me

(If I don't wake up)

(If I don't wake—) Up, I'm better off

I'll finally catch up on my sleep

I've been so lost, 3 AM thoughts

Are building a new home just for me