[Chorus]

And I don't wanna live like this

I'm on my own

And I don't wanna leave right now

But I'm all alone

[Verse 1]

Never thought I'd try suicide

But my mind is a prison

I'm peeking through the blinds

And I know my decision will be scrutinized

But you can't judge a man until you're looking through his eyes

Cuz they wanna call me selfish

Wake up every day the same and I feel helpless

Everyone around me telling me life's precious

But all I feel is pain so pardon me if I'm skeptic

I've been feeling sick

Sick of feeling worthless

Sick of acting like every day has been so perfect

Sick of feeling pain

Fake smiles on the surface

Sick of waking up knowing I don't have a purpose

And I don't wanna die, but I know it's for the best

Trying to find peace, but I know there's nothing left

Only time I feel bliss is the moment of my death

Maybe I can finally smile as I take my last breath

Try to turn a page, I'm stuck in the same chapter

Searching for some love, I ain't finding what I'm after

Swear these damn thoughts controlling me like a cancer

What's the point of life, I can never find the answer

Damn

And I don't wanna make my mother cry

But all the pain I've been feeling is being multiplied

So when she finally comes to terms that her son has died

Tell her I'm looking for happiness on the other side

[Chorus]

And I don't wanna live like this

I'm on my own

And I don't wanna leave right now

But I'm all alone

Cause I don't wanna feel this pain

I'd rather die right now

I just wanna be okay

Ooh-ooh

[Verse 2]

Wait, before you make your decision

Take a second, put yourself in your familys position

Know you feeling like death is the only way but it isn't

Know the pains hard but I swear it's just here to visit

So please

Don't do it, I can promise that it doesn't help

The pain'll pass, you're passing the pain to someone else

You got a beautiful soul, Don't make 'em suffer

I know you'll get through, I know that you got it covered

You're made special, kind, loving and gentle

Even if you can't see just know that you got potential

I know you suffer through the day tryna hold composure

But God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers

I don't wanna see the day that you fall apart

So keep pushing, a fighter I know that's who you are

Even know you feel like you live with a broken heart

Just know the darkest nights make the brightest stars

And I promise it gets better with time

I know it doesn't feel like it but depression it lies

You deserve much more so just sever the ties

Between those toxic thoughts and you're intelligent mind

I know it's tough when you're battling depression

It's hard to fake a smile with the pain that you're suppressing

Your mind plays tricks and it got you second guessing

But people care about you and need the feel of your presence

You got family they love you try to remember

I know you think you're nothing but in their mind you're a treasure

Times get rough and I know you feeling the pressure

But I've been through it too and I swear that it gets better

[Chorus]

And I don't wanna live like this

I'm on my own

And I don't wanna leave right now

But I'm all alone

Cause I don't wanna feel this pain

I'd rather die right now

I just wanna be okay

Oohohoh