[Intro: Sugene]

[Verse 1: Sugene]

I'm second guessing reminiscing every second

Cause it led my ass to question my existence in the present

I been on expeditions to diminish my regrets and

Get my essence to replenish so my thinking is intrepid

Like I dreamt it, would be someday if I have kids

Gotta stop reflecting what would show them who their dads been

We got habits we develop, shouldn't have to even tell ya

That they pop up less as time progresses, yet it either heals ya

Or corrupts your mind, so much you find, your friends won't even help ya

You stress about your social life, that pressure leads to failure

You let your heart bleed on the mic, you're gettin' hemophilia

The depression becomes full of spite, you let that evil build up

Your emotional compulsions control you until you crash

You gotta suck it up and just hold all your feelings back

Born in '94, you're old enough you're a man

No one's scolding you but the man who can throw you inside the can, goddamn

[Hook: Sugene]

And life used to be paradise

But paranoia is a parasite

Optimism isn't much of an option

Fair to say that I am scared of life

But I gotta be my own critic now

No more excuses, no more excuses

Time only stops for God

And I got to find Him through music

[Verse 2: Sugene]

I'm second guessing expecting rewards

From everybody in my life, because I keep spitting these bars

I actively practice my passion and they know

And She knows, but its like She pretends to ignore

I attempt to explore the mental distraught in my thoughts

When all the euphorias lost, and I'm just avoiding to talk

I sit bored in my dorm, just counting the days until break

I interact with hidden chances, but find ways to escape

Love's not paving ways to happiness unless its unconditional

There really is no need for all the stress I'm just too cynical

Its pitiful, but I won't beg for sympathy

Yeah, I tend to shy away but I won't let that limit me

If I have to die today, I'm glad I left my mark

With this art, they'll examine every canvas then they'll finally understand

I went so hard with what I did, but I gotta keep my faith

And acknowledge only God can lead the way, but man..

[Hook: Sugene]

[Verse 3: Robby Fame]

Its so insane how these people give us false hope

Telling us that it’ll be okay when it all won’t

When I was young they said my dreams would never fall through

Now they saying different and claim it wasn’t a smart move

At that moment I felt my life was the biggest lie

Tears running my down face, the pain made me sick inside

Victimized by the words of a promised man

Such a scam, that will never take you to the Promised Land

Ignorance is paradise, life became a parasite

Gamble with a pair of dice, you could lose a pair of eyes

Yeah, so play it smart or get left dead

Cause in the end you’re by yourself, now accept that

I been searching for that girl that’ll make it better

But I feel that it’s futile and’ll take forever

So I turn to that one dream that gave me hope

And pursue it till the day I die, say I won’t..

[Hook: Sugene]

[Outro: Sugene]

Life used to be paradise

But paranoia is a parasite

Ooh Sarah, my only love

My only love..