14. Without You

Through the murkiest skies I can still see your face

I sit on our couch wishing you were there every day

Candles by your pictures as I look at them & sob

I lay by your tombstone all day long

Can't sleep in our bed alone, it feels so unbearable

Can't control the loss in my soul it feels so terrible

You were my total serenity & now it's gone

Hating god more than ever for your life was robbed

I'm emptier than ever without my better half

I miss your scent, your smile, your knowledge, your laugh

Your voice, your jokes, the touch of your hands

I talk to your grave hoping you hear me somehow

You were there when I was slowly melting with despair

Our love so sacred, so extraordinarily rare

I hurt so awful I can't begin to describe

All these infinite tears that I feel inside

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Please set me free without her I can't bear to live

I cannot continue I'm dead inside as it is

I scream to the sky bawling out "WHY???!!!"

Without you I'm dead just alive on the outside

You were everything I wished for, needed & dreamed of

Nobody truly knows the ways I feel, beyond beat up

Nothing will relinquish my endless agony

Everything else in life all I feel is apathy

I must liberate myself from this torture travesty

It's been too long she's gone I'm too sad to be

I fought & struggled in all my strength to heal

But my grief is immense it's all that I can feel

Living life disgusts me without you in it

I've dealt with what I could, but this is the limit

If I don't end my misery, it will surely continue

Devastation & torture can't describe what I went through

A tree that hangs over her grave I tie an extension cord to the branch

In my pocket is my suicide letter

Saying: "I can't be without her, this pain I must sever

I was already dead inside, this way it's better."