20. Sometimez

Sometimez I have no regard for what I do

Sometimez I just don't give a shit about you

Sometimez I think "What the fuck am I doing here?"

Sometimez I place the gun under my ears

Sometimez I think "Man, I'm wasting my time"

Sometimez my fans can make me feel so alive

Sometimez I believe the fucked things people say

Sometimez I sit back & visualize the grave

Sometimez things hurt when I know they shouldn't

Sometimez I got shit to say but don't know how to put it

Sometimez I wanna just smash your head

Sometimez I didn't mean those things I said

Sometimez I can feel the tears building up inside

Sometimez through all the pain I can't even cry

Sometimez I feel like no one really cares

Sometimez I learn lessons from my nightmares

Sometimez I'm sharp as can be & know what's up

Sometimez I can't believe I can be so dumb

Sometimez I don't react exactly how I should

Sometimez I hate how I treat people so good

Sometimez I space out about homicide methods

Sometimez people don't even know with who they're messin'

Sometimez I think about things & want revenge

Sometimez I realize that's what I can't get

Sometimez I think about my fallen fans & friends

Sometimez I talk out loud to myself to help my head

Sometimez I look at you & I glow with a smile

Sometimez I think about life without my child

Sometimez I know you wanna hurt me & I understand

Sometimez people won't stay the hell back

Sometimez I wanna show you I love you, but I can't

Sometimez I wish you knew me better than that

Sometimez I'm spiteful, sometimez I'm right

Sometimez I wish there was a god in this life

Sometimez I wanna give you much more than I should

Sometimez I'm doing bad when I'm doing good