18. Reclusive

At night drifting on the road, driving home

Stress & worries in my head tire me with my eyes closed

I feel like I'm gonna explode

Having thoughts lately in my days

Still of the grave, myself I wanna save

But reality bites me & I fight as my eyes glow

Don't need to tell me I'm a wreck, believe me I know

I'm on the end in danger zone, gettin' mentally thrown

Don't come at me with a joke, when mе you don't fuckin' know

I might leap right at you & blend your face with thе floor

My nerves are sore, be warned of a person who is torn

I would rather sit at home, unplug the phone

In the dark, in my room, in a corner all alone, yo

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Apathy at large, I'm feeling so gone

I'm falling straight down, don't care to hold on

Whatever happens will happen with no shame

Not scared to live or die, just rather stay away

I don't give a damn for what anyone's got to say

I'm where I belong right now, I'm not coming out to play

I feel betrayed & destructive I'll hurt feelings & bodies

If I get it don't break my peace, or madness will increase

I'm having negative thoughts that won't clear away

Preparing for bad shit before it comes my way

Anxiety is pressing, my breathing's going crazy

Headaches building up, haven't eaten in days I'm drained

Having visions of death like in my hallway being hung

Sordid I know, but guess what? I don't give a fuck

I'm telling you nice, I'm simplifying it to all

Keep away goddamnit or ya may have to fall