14. MY MIND

What is my mind? What makes my side?

I don't care how I got it I take the pride

Inside & it shows in my eyes the times

Born a seed of violence & evil

Also, there for all the good people

Inside it's heaven & hell

Never was a part of the racist shell

In this world I can good enough taste the hell

Mind of a madman & good judgment, my brain cells die & different ones grow

I mess up a lotta times 'cause it just works slow

Memory unstable, "dumb" is what I'm labeled

I'm diluted but never been polluted

Years have opened my eyes

& it all went to the maniacal mind

Didn't plan it, I don't understand it

Vulgar, vile, been there for a while, it grew from being on this planet

To assist & punish from this mind that's frantic

Seeing enemies & foes decomposed

Visions of pain & death with a black rose

Through all the incidents I keep my mind right

I have no fright, 'cause I lived in fear then I altered my life

Then I became someone I liked I put my guard up from abuse I took

It's a thing of pain as big as a book

1 of the strangest, 1 of weirdest, when it comes to a friend I can be the dearest

I trust my vibes & can feel if you're devious & yes this mind's mischievous

What goes around, comes around, I'm fair with no discrimination

Prejudice isn't a part of my nation; I hold on to purification through the abrasions

Self-destructing thoughts build when my times are low & ill

But I give thanks to the mic 'cause that's the pain pill

Agnostic, I do everything I can for the ones I love

Even I'm exhausted used to be easily fooled

Had so much love to give but they weren't true

& I knew I had to move, vigilant about who's next to stab

I'll burn them before they burn me & won't be sad

But I got my eyes peeled can't roll with anyone that is not real

I'm foolish, humorous, sinister as hell, but I follow my heart true & well

Take my kindness for weakness you think I'm blind?

I ain't stupid anymore, can't patronize my mind

My mind...my mind