11. Mental Stress

My mind is a prison of uncontrollable terror & discomfort

All I do is try to break out of the cell for freedom & I can't

I got no hope I got reality to think positive

Something's gotta show for it, I can't ignore it

My thoughts are horrid & people wanna laugh & twist up my words & ridicule

I appreciate the help, but I don't need nonsense & lies

The world is scared of me not many care for me

Running outta solutions so I guess I need some therapy

Visions of my own death so nightmarishly

I try to go to bed & sleep away the stress

But she's there in every dream I can't get any rest

I'm taunted & haunted what the fuck I gotta do to get myself right again?

Anxiety attacks & suicide taunting

Through all the darkness I'm trying to find a light in it

I'm tryna fight again

Tryna piece myself together but my patience is so thin

I don't know what to do I'm so lost within

Enemies of mine scheming that want me defeated

I'm still waitin' with teeth grit stop dreamin'

You sons of a bitches want your blood shed like you need it

You wanna fight? Then bring it bitch I'm fuckin fiendin'

I swear to God you must want your attitudes adjusted

I swear to God I am not the one you wanna fuck with

Believe me right now my nerves aren't strong

You give me a problem & I'm giving you a brawl

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Help me I cannot breathe

This mental stress is fucking me

Tell me what I do not see

If you don't truly get it better keep away from me

I'm on edge & militant ready to snap hard

Nightstick & crowbar in the front seat of the car

I'm living in hell & the layers gettin' deeper

The flames are gettin higher, sanity to expire

I know it'd be easier to channel my love to hate

But I can't play it crooked unfair or fake

My head is poison I don't know how to break free

Don't blame me my heart starts to race when I see her face

No comfort in anything, I'ma fuckin mental case

Trying hard every day to accept this weight

People won't shut their fuckin' mouths

Just for a minute or listen stressin' me & dissin' & bitchin'

Don't ask me what'll happen 'cause I'm not even knowing

I drag my nails across my face screaming & exploding

I know it's just a matter of time

If I'm not in a strait jacket soon, I'm taking life

Do you think for a minute you'll be forgiven?

You tested me hard you passed the limit

I got the symptoms of insanity but you're misunderstandin' me

I'm finished of you just verbally slammin me

You corrupted my patience & corroded my memory

It took everything I had not to tear you apart

Fought my transformation to save you abrasions

You're gonna pay for every time you gave me humiliation

When there's no fear in the soul of maniac

You oughta watch how you act that's a fact

I'm accumulating pain & sick shit

Getting worse every day with a growing sickness

I'm hitting low's that's how it goes

When you feel like your heart has a hole, no control

The liars, the hate, the sincerity that's fake

Empty promises & anguish that all of it creates