14. Increasing Hatred

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No more, love no more smiles, it's so vile

You're the 1 who made it you're increasing my hatred

No more trust, no more care, it isn't there

This is what you created, you're increasing my hatred

I cogitate & meditate try to think straight

But all I feel is hatred at a small thought of your name

Even if I wanted, it won't slightly change

It's all a massive, putrid, vile lake, of pure hate

My world is palace full of realness & malice

You think I'm knocked off balance & totally callous

You couldn't understand you avoid me like a coward

I wasted patience on you for countless hours

When I think of you I feel sick in many ways

I need to get rid of you I felt this shit too many days

I truly feel my bitterness for you as a disease

You treated me like your dog, I can't scratch you like a flea

My heart bleeds, I'm dead, I walk around like I'm alive

Having arguments with morality over suicide

My sick wishes for you are what I deeply fantasize

Blame yourself for it because of you daily it's aggrandized

For all my pain of your lies I hope it kills you inside

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Your deception & betrayal have made me jagged like nails

I didn't choose to be poisonous, but now it's unveiled

Now I love reminiscing of when I caused your tears

I laugh at the memories of what I used to hold dear

You murdered my love & my patience & built hatred

Now I'm so complacent having the mind of a sadist

The greatest wish I have for you is die slow like me

& feel the shroud of desertion as it smothers your screams

I want you to struggle & feel the need just like me

Knowing I'm not there to even care if you breathe

When I look at your photograph, I clench my teeth

Drops of hatred added when I hear you speak

I wanna rape all your joy & leave you naked & broke

I wanna slit your hopes dry & have the blood make ya choke

All the love I had is ashes that blew away in the wind

All the hate & darkness I have now is serene within

"I FUCKING HATE YOU!!"