06. Grimson Tears

(Chorus)

Days are red, razor's end with tears of bloodshed

The soul of mine inside has an age beyond eyes

Plagued in poverty & have been for a long time

Search deeply in my eyes & my hell you will find

Keep telling yourself ya care, but without action it's not there

I can't be mind-fucked 'cause my mind is too dirty

Feeling like I'm 300 when I'm supposed to be 30

I trust nobody in my circle, it's all an X now

Rituals are what draws the heavy tears with death sounds

I no longer know my purpose to take a brеath now

I'm hollow as a drum, I try to beat my stress down

I tell еverything to my gun, it's my therapistol

In foreign torment with violent wind whistles

My reflection in the moon in the form of a silhouette

World of deterioration, up & down, right & left

I dream of bliss & I wish not to wake up

My lost soul screaming, dry heaving, I take some

My fantasies nail me, injure me, hospital shit

Give myself a tip when these hollow points hit

My ending is fucked up like Mulholland Drive

I reached & fought & struggled, but I couldn't stay alive

I used to feel you with me, now I feel the disappearance

I feel you diss me left me quickly

Death had to come for me, always had a special invite

Opinions & lectures telling me how to live life

Judge it but I tell it how I honestly feel

Therefore, we know how it's honestly real

Eyes are windows to the soul, I closed mine

Caught between the confirmation of death & affirmation of life

Fade away like a memory, but it's still here for the time

Corrosion in my mental too much wear (where) & tear to find

Everywhere I go, whatever I do, in all directions

Facing shut locked doors, vast amounts of rejection

These are omens like Damian that I've gone crazy with

Full life of emptiness, a disease that made me sick

Abandonment is endless, but you can keep pretending

Last paragraph of prison life, I cut down the sentence

This song is the healin', Portrait Ov A Villain

"Everything I love in my life goes away...."