05. Arguing With Morality (Ft. Deadly Encryption)

[VECT]:

Most of us have the constructs embedded in our minds to know that suicide is the wrong way out & completely selfish, but some of us have fought pain for as long as we could. & like all things...you get to the point where you just don't fucking care anymore. Deadly Encryption, S.I.D.R.O.E aka VECTeezy motherfucker, bring it

(Chorus)

[VECT]:

No more struggles with temptation

Full of cravings of my annihilation

I suppose you think I'm crazy 'cause I have no fear

I'm done telling my story that falls on deaf ears

[VECT]:

What's gonna stop me from ending you when I wanna end myself too bitch?

Only thing I ever had in my cornеr to the end is all this fucking musick

I'm done waiting on thе ride to suicide

I've already died inside countless times

All this life gives is self-destruction on my brain

It won't stay away & it knows I'm not afraid

Got a .38 piece aimed to my forehead

Taking turns at a table with a couple of my friends

Pull the hammer back hear a click then a clack

Somewhere in my mind I hear my daughter say "Daddy stop that!"

Days pass by like a cold wind

With fatal self-inflicted incisions & my visions

It's funny how you'll give a shit when it's all done

When you ignored all my letters & you didn't give a fuck

[Deadly Encryption]:

Another day I wake up family in church

Girlfriend left me, so now my heart is hurt

Shit is what I get for all of my hard work

Might as well say "Fuck it!" & be 1 with the earth

I got some dark secrets you that never even cared

I can be on my lowest & you wouldn't be there

I know they won't miss me they would just forget it

Like another pop single with the radio edit

So I write my last song & grab my dad's Glock

A .45 magnum & make sure that it's cocked

Before I get the chance on the door there's a knock

It's a cop, so now I'm doin months on the lock

Therapy sessions & the suicide watch

I shoulda never answered it & died on the spot

Now the pain grows to a thing that I fear

That when I look in mirror to see the devil is here

[Deadly Encryption]:

Every day's the same, another drug, another slut

Another cut on my wrist from my only lost love

Was a bug to my stomach & a pain to my soul

So, now I chill in graveyards hoping that I could just go

Back to the past to the day we 1st met

So I could cut you from the neck & watch as you bled to death

So, that way when the cops came I'm going for life

& last words she heard were "Will you be my wife?"

[VECT]:

I'm a zombie with a strong evolving mind state

I'm done trying to fight what has proved to be my fate

Fuck tomorrow & fuck yesterday

Look in my empty eyes, death is now a game

My cause of death cannot be undone

I wanna die in the darkness & no longer feel the sun

I don't wanna be in the same world with my enemies

I am my own god & I choose to set myself free