03. Alone

In this life it's me, nobody around, never found, underground

Wicked sounds in my mind, escape the backstab & lies

I'm livin' in pain every day, can't refrain my days in vain

I see a cliff in my midst, God, I wanna jump away

So alone, so bored, so emotionally sore

Still think it's best sometimes that I was never born

I'm so deprived, born to lose, sick of being used

Don't tell me it's my fault when it isn't what I choose

As I always have, I know I gotta strive

Try to revamp while I'm walking thin lines

Abandoned & left behind right in the dirt

Whether I'm a maniac or not it still hurt

If it weren't for the hard times, there wouldn't be any

If you don't understand me don't dismiss it as petty

Whenever I get something good, it's smacked out my hand

That's the curse I live with must be someone's plan

Here to myself & this empty hell inside

Returning thoughts of suicide & leave it all behind

In the mirror with the Ruger aimed to my brain

Losing more sanity, yes, I'm insane

& I'm alone, I'm alone, all alone...

How much more? Want no more to feel sore as before

Always torn, proceed to fail, need a bail, like a jail

Sick of it all & all of people's crap

How much will I take till I go all out & snap?

All that ran out on me were bitches & stale

I live the sad life of nonstop betrayal

Don't you understand? I didn't choose this fate

But it's what I take the best of it I make

Pain is all really, I ever truly had

Fuck a pity party, these are the true facts

Never had anyone there to truly care

& when I did, they disappeared on me in thin air

A messed-up depressive, guess that's all I got left

Living with the emptiness making me a mess

I'd rather drop it all right now & give up & die

Whatever happens I don't care I got no fear inside

& I'm alone, I'm alone, all alone...