I don't wanna keep fighting

I don't wanna wish for the best

We all know what's coming

Been 28 years of this

Waiting for yet another relapse

Something else I can't ever fix

Become a whole different person

Someone no one will ever miss

I don't fucking want this

I don't wanna keep fighting

I don't wanna wish for the best

We all know what's coming

Been 28 years of this

I don't want this

But I still have shit to do

When I know it's over

I'm not rotting in some fucking room

Repeat the process to stay alive

Watch the hope inside of you die

Feel the medication burn your insides

And tell everyone you're fine

This wasn't my choice

But it's all that I know

You suffer right through and you put on a show

Don't worry about me, don't worry about it

If I'm dying in my youth, well, I can't really stop it

What is the price of life

When it just turns to survival?

Losing everyone you love

Putting yourself on idle

When can you say that you can't take anymore?

Seeing yourself through the mirror

Watching as your body deplores

Why the need for so much gruesome graphic violence?

Why not let us—

Because it's so much fun, Jan

How much until you break?

Skin and bone, exposing your ribcage

Another hospital stay, yeah, oh

How much until you break?

Fuck

I don't wanna keep fighting

I don't wanna wish for the best

We all know what's coming

Been 28 years of this

Waiting for yet another relapse

Something I'll never be able to fix

Become a whole different person

And have everyone think of me less

I don't wanna live in a world

Where everything I love has died

I don't wanna live in a world

When I'm just struggling to survive

Life's not living in a hospital bed

I'm not living when I'm just sick and depressed

Life's a bitch

Isn't it?